i feel like me or someone close to me is dying even though nothing's wrong

[batris19]

I'm 15 and I've had issues with my mental health before but it has gotten better this past couple of months. I've been under stress due to exams this past week and I've also had trouble sleeping. 2 days ago I got sick with what is probably a flu or cold and since then I haven't been able to shake away my feelings of dread.

At first I thought I was going to die, which I decided to google and apparently some people know when they're dying and that definitely did nothing to help me. Later on, my mind switched to thinking someone in my family was going to die either my parents or grandparents. I threw up the first night and immediately felt better physically.

After feeling better physically, all the fears went away immediately.But the next morning my fever came back and with my fever came back the sense of dread. It wasn't really bad yesterday though so I managed to stomach it and I find being near my family reassures me that nobody is going to die.

But today, my fever has mostly went away and I just feel tired, nothing else but the sense of dread is so bad. My parents went to a reunion of theirs this morning and haven't come back yet and since the morning I haven't been able to shake the feelings of dread at all.

So what do you think? Is it the stress, the flu, the lack of sleep or something else? Is this just a phase? And do you have any tips to help me out here, it would be very appreciated. I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow if this doesn't get better. Thanks!

- also, if the times seem weird, that's because I live in Indonesia -

[amorvincetomnia]

Hello! I will share with you what has helped me on my journey. I have been on xanax 3 x 1 mg a day since 20 years, I have recently strt coming down and am no on 0.25 not long to go! whoop whoop, I really had benefit by something which is called the Sedona method in coming down it helped me to release a lot of emotions like fear, trauma, thoughts, beliefs etc. Give it ago  maybe I downloaded it the movie which is called letting go -sedona method and also the audiobook and workbook, it allows me to not identify with my thoughts. Much Love Nat