my anxiety is out of control please help

[emma6668]

My anxiety always gets the better of me, i cant help it, i hate it so much and im starting to hate myself... i dont know why i bother because i cant beat it.... im 20 years old and my life is pathetic... compared to what it should be.... what i want it to be. i have an anxiety that fuels a habbit... the habbit involves me pushing, touching, pressing my eye.... i feel like i can pull it out. four professionala have told me more than once that i can in no way get my eye out. i dont even want to get it out yet i keep doing it. then the anxiety hits i feel ill from worrying about it. i dont even believe the professionals anymore i still think i can get it out. but why do i keep thinking about it and worrying myself sick i hate it it is controling and ruining my life. my doc says my anxiety fuels my habit, my habit fuels my anxiety. i have been for an eye check up and iv not done any damage. but i have to kick this habit i cant take it anymore i really need to get it to go away i feel like 2 people are fighting inside me ... i cant be alone cos i feel it gets worse so being alone scares me. i have no independence anymore, and no confidence... like i used to. i miss the old me :( my doc has put me on tablets that calms me down and has reffered me to a counciller im still waiting to hear off them...but i dont feel i can go on like this anymore, i just want to be happy. what if the councilling doesnt work:?:? thats what im also worrying about and what about hypnothearpy?? please help me

[emma6668]

how do i believe in myself? im so depressed i just get so negative

[Nasal_Problems]

Emma,

Please stop judging yourself. You are fine just the way you are. There are people who love you as you are. Try to not be so rigid. Once you stop trying to change yourself, I believe you may find that your attacks are not quite so severe. You need to accept your situation and try to deal with it. Running away or trying an immediate fix doesn't help. Acceptance and Confidence does. You need to work on that first.

I have had the same problems as you. Except mine is with my nose. I have nasal problems so I constantly touch my nose when I am nervous. I've gotten a bit better, by tapping (www.tapping.com). It helps me. You should try it.

Good luck.