Im lost and confused

[itzagoodlife]

Im 15 years old and i think i may have been having panic attacks..my mom says i have been...
symptoms:
*cold or hot flashes
*my heart beats fast
*im worrying about death (not killing myself but more like being killed by a stranger and my life just ending abruptly)
*constantly fearing the worst in situations
*feeling like everyone hates me
*i get slight headaches
*insomnia
*i am easily set off because of the way people act
*anxiety makes me feel like there is something just sitting on my shoulders and wont go away

now my friends say that this is just because of school..but when school ended they became worse...and when i think about some dumb stuff i have done in the past whether its minor or major it comes back and makes me feel really bad..i thought maybe i was just bottling everything up and just needed to let off steam and talk to my friend but she ended up telling me without listening that i was more bored than stressed or anxious. i was insulted but i thought that maybe she was right..i talked to my mom and she says that i do most likely have it since it runs in our family..when i talk to more friends im always afraid that they will talk behind my back and then people will call me crazy..my friend says that she gets them too but she tells me how she feels and its not nearly as close as to what i feel..i have taken almost every panic attack test that there is out there and they all say i do have it..i fear about getting angry because that makes my panic worse..i have bottled up anger but i never take it out in a physical way  i just let it out by talking but no one seems to listen and they just seem to blow me off..

family history:
*mother, my mothers grandmother have depression
*father and uncle (mothers side) both have severe bipolar
*mother and uncle both have Severe panic attacks

the worst thing out of all of this is that i think that this may just be all in  my head..like what if im making this all up and then it makes me feel even worse..i have been trying to stop my self from panicking but nothing seems to work.. im also afraid if i see a doctor that he will say that im not suffering from panic attacks..like what if this is all made up in my head...

solutions i have tried:
*drinking tea (helps a bit)
*taking a walk(makes me scared about being murdered and never getting to see my family again)
*ive have tried staying off caffine but that didnt work i was actually just the same

please i don’t want to sound crazy AT ALL but i feel like i dont have anyone to talk to  and im worried that the outcome is that i dont have it or that i do but its much worse (like my father and uncle they have both been committed twice for the same reasons{meds stopped working})

thank you for your time..i just really want to know..do you think i have it and if i do what are some ways to calm it down with out medication..

thanks,
Jen

[j17c27]

Im 16 and i feel the same way as you. I felt extremely lost and at times i felt i was the only one in the world who could possibly feel this bad.  Anxiety is a horrible feeling, and i know what its like to not want to take medicine. I did, however talk about it with my doctor because due to my anxiety i got severely depressed. I started taking Lexapro. It has little risks and side effects and it is not addictive.  After a while, when you start feeling better, you can even be taken off of it and still feel the same as when you were on it.  Along with anxiety it also treats depression if you have any symptoms of it.  I know you dont want to turn to medication, but i recomend it. It does not cure anxiety but it makes panic attacks less severe and helps you deal better with everyday symptoms.

[Kamminari]

Stay strong.  :)  It sounds a lot like what happened to me when I first started having panic problems in jr High.  I'm 31 now, and I am just starting to get my life back under control.  Don't take that as discouraging though, in this day and age it is much easier to get help and support.  My parents had no clue what was hapening to me.  Talk to people, trust in good drs and know that as bad as it feels, it will get better and there is a light ahead.  Hope this helps, I'm actually sleepy on meds right now so hope this is legible.  Prayers and good energy and best wishes and everything happy your way.  if I can help more let me know.

[GenieWishes]

*cold or hot flashes
*my heart beats fast
*im worrying about death (not killing myself but more like being killed by a stranger and my life just ending abruptly)
*constantly fearing the worst in situations
*feeling like everyone hates me
*i get slight headaches
*insomnia
*i am easily set off because of the way people act
*anxiety makes me feel like there is something just sitting on my shoulders and wont go away  



^^ i get all of them and lots more

[GenieWishes]

Hi im a teen aswell
I have all the same problems as you  but  i also have an outragous fear  of someone being in the house. if i am left alone i lock myself in my room and shut the curtains.

it feels good to talk to people on hear because they dont judge you  because we  all get them, i feel like people think im mental or something.

if you need to talk  more just  say .. lol
i suffer with

panic attacks
anxiety
seperation disorder
o.c.d
deppression
insomnia
i am cynical and defensive
am irritable with outbursts of anger
and accident prone

I used to have 5 major panic attacks a day but now its more like 5 medium  week ..
hope this helped you feel like your  n ot the only one out there and made you feel better.

[shelll]

hello i am 18 years old and suffer from the same thing, i think u are suffering from panick attacks i have really bad ones they are starting to affect everything i do, i also have a really fast heart rate all of the time because i am so anxious and thinking about them all the time. i got took into hospital one time when i thought i was having a heartatack and it was only a panic attack but thats how bad i get them. i always think i am going to die when i have them and this makes me depressed, now all i think about is dying and my friends and family dying and this is all to do with my anxiety and panic attacks i would reccoment getting therapy or councilling as if you do nothing they will probably get worse. there is usually something that triggers panick attacks so you should try and find out what it is so you can sort out the problem, and you are not crazy alot of people feel like this :)

[kay2486]

you are best seeing a doctor or therapist to diagnose you then go from there,

[mama23babies]

It does sound like you are suffering from anxiety. I am 27 years old and have severe panic attacks at times. I am a mother of 3 and find it very hard to cope without my husband being with me. i just use him as my comfort person I guess.

With your family history and the details you provided I think you definately have anxiety. It's good that you are realizing it so young. I never realized what I was experiencing when i was your age,but I would frequently get a butterfly in the stomach feeling and have to go to the bathroom ALOT. I could never figure out why I was so nervous and worried all the time. The weird thing with me is that my mother or father never experienced anything like this and are actually pretty laid back people.

Please continue to talk to your mother and see a DR. You have your whole life ahead of you to work through this. Maybe getting in to see a therapist would help you. You are not crazy and anxiety will not make you go crazy.