Going into a trance?

[Snakenstein]

I don't know if i've posted it before. But now that i'm not in that mood anymore, and seeing it from a clear, normal perspective i'm becoming increasingly confused as to what happened to me a few weeks back. Well one day, I woke up and everything just seemed extremely abnormal. However, I was very happy in the morning and telling my mother how much I appreciated her, and how happy i was to be spending the day with her. But when i left the house, I went into a trance, I had an overwhelming sense of Deja Vu and I kept thinking that i'd seen something like this in 18th century Ireland, and that somehow i'd been there before. (boy, when i say this now im thinking WTFH was I thinking?!)  And anyways, and I was in this trance I kept repeating a phrase, over and over again from a song i heard called Ireland Sun. And as my mom would try to talk to me, I wouldn't respond. I mean I thought of trying to respond, but i just couldn't. I felt like it would break something, and my physical body wasn't important. Even as i rode the bus, I couldnt break the trance, or the thoughts (plus I had three internal voices, my own, kinda split?). Even subtle attempts at talking, or trying to break the trance, did not work. At one point, i kind of realized this was a trance, but the Deja Vu was just unrelenting.

When i got home, I was super volatile, and giggly. I did things without realizing the consequences. For example I like a child threw food some food in the sink, just simply because I felt like it. And threw a full [glass] plate of food at my mothers head (which I deeply regret, and didnt even realize i was doing it until it crashed on the floor) And i just kept giggling. And she got really upset and was going to break some of my things, so I was like play fighting and pulling her hair (but i really ended up hurting her). I was literally misbehaving like a four year old and didnt even THINK of the consequences of my actions. Like I said, I had no idea what took over me that day. This was also a few days after I had a real manic episode (and I know what it was, it was like textbook quality, ive never experienced something that severe)

Whats on my mind right now is, why did this happen? The more and more I think about it, the more befuddled I am. Ive been in a trance similar (when i thought i was going to be one of the horseman for the apocalypse, long *** story). But  Im wondering why the hell this happens. =/ I feel like I was in a dream or something, and I wonder if I just induced it, or what? I mean, once im out of it, I think its a little ridiculous (but for some reason, i cant complemently discount it)

But anyways. WHAT DA FUX JUST HAPPENED?!

[starbunny]

I would take ILADVOCATE's advice. Before being diagnosed bipolar, I was told I was probably suffering from temporal lobe seizures which can be dramatic and can mimic psychosis. They can present in forms of deja vu, hallucinations, jamais vu (unfamiliarity) mood swings and memory loss. Although my EEG was fine, and the neurologist now thinks it is psychiatric I have to be on a mood stabiliser that also acts as an anticonvulsant just to be on the safe side, as well as an antipsychotic.
There is an interesting post on this on the neurology forum:

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Neurology/Are-seizure-disorders-and-bipolar-disorder-related/show/295386

[Snakenstein]

Maybe I do have something like that. I'll have to come to her about that, though I just came in for a bunch of other symptoms and all my blood tests came back negative, and i dont want her to think im a hypochondriac or something. But anyways, lately ive been fatigued all day, so tired that i find myself constantly startled, and constantly staring off into space. Its been a struggle to keep my eyes open all day. The fatigue is so severe im experiencing hypnagogic hallucinations before sleeping. (which have become very distressing because im now not only hearing faint sounds or screaming, but specific shouting words) And I dont know what to do, I can barely wake up in the morning, i have to force myself out of bed, after sleeping a solid 10+ hours. :[

[ILADVOCATE]

Some aspects of that sound like psychosis but neurological criteria such as temporal lobe epilepsy should be ruled out. Only a doctor could make a specific diagnosis but it might be best to see a neurologist in addition to a psychiatrist as some neurological disabilities such as temporal lobe epilepsy (you can look it up online, many known people throughout history had it, such as the science fiction writer Philip K. **** and the author  Dostoevsky and it was thought to be psychiatric until it was clinically defined) should be ruled out. It would however be strongly reccomended to have a standard physical evaluation with an EEG so they could test what is going on and know how to best treat you.