You may have hospitalized once. After you came out from hospital how many times you are hospitalized? I am hospitalized once may be I have to hospitalized many times. I am not sure. When I was hospitalised once I asked with one of the friend how many times did you came here, he told it's my 7th time. But I don't have easily life either outside, always hard happens just i don't show from the start small small hard. Mental life is so hard life, hell life, But i think i have to go to hospital . I think mental life is life time in and out. One of the worst life. I am not understand why I am not going in when other has been 7 times. Am i well or not? not sure, sometimes when i am sleeping something press my body so dangerously, i feel like almost broke my backbone, sometimes body paralise and makes me hit, full of psycologies, among them one of the most dangerous psycology is my thinking go on leg joints, hand joints and sakes the body , my heart never ever fears but it looks like i am worring and fearing. So much dangerous psycology. All psycology i beated but that one psycology is so much dangerous. I stayed silent because that has happened to my brother too and my brother left the job. Thats not a nervousness. But i am handeling that psycology because one year i have faced that one. That was the first time i faced the psycology in my life and i remembered that has happened to my brother. When i was facing that for the first time one year before, it was so much hard. And this psycology appeared by risperadel now it is iritating. I actually don't have idea may i need to go hospital to clear these things or this is for whole life and keeps repeating. But i actually don't show or tell these things to anybody becaue it sounds frantic, and obviously doesnt happens to them who are fine. Besides when i am sleeping so dangerous dangerous things happens, but they keeps repeating i scared first time later i didnot care. But these things are iritating. Tell me how many times did you been to hospital. Mental life so hard, first lovely butchered conciously, next medicine daily after that also not enough daily death. Sometimes when i see somebody mad or beggar I feel they are also future mental peoples, I was on the street somebody selfspeaking shouting, cause i was same like that some say do you cigeratte, please, some say spare change please, some shout on the street, cause i used to shout on phone loud, , a waste life, nothing progress happens, too slow. Whatever tell me how many times you hospitalized. And when you go to hospital again and again do you feel any changes or problems solved or not? please let me know.