Whay can't I pull myself out of this?

[breakingapart]

Okay, so I haven't been on here for a long time now, but thats only because I had a friend over for pretty much the whole month of June. Well, heres my progress so far: I haven't been sleeping--even when I am super tired--and I have not managed to pull myself out of this...bad state. I'm afraid of myself right now and all of this stuff going on inside is making me feel sick. (In other words, my thoughts and negative emotions are getting to me real bad and I cannot make it stop.) Why can't I sleep? Why can't I pull myself out of this rut I am in? I was doing so good when my best friend came over and now my life is falling apart again. Why can't I just do good for once?

[blakismom]

I know how you feel about not being able to pull out of it. I often ask myself the very same question. I wonder if it's my willpower not being strong enough, or what but I beat myself up because I cannot pull myself up out of it no matter how hard I try.

Don't despair, you are not alone. That's why we are all here. Just trying to figure things out and help others do the same.

[theguts]

I think that you need to go to a hospital or call your doctor right away.

Are you on any meds?  And, are you taking them?  It's important to take your meds as directed by your doc.

I hope things get better for you.  Keep us posted.

[ILADVOCATE]

Lack of sleep can be part of depression but you have some very realistic concerns that would cause anxiety and stress in anyone, regardless of what's going on. It would be worth speaking to a therapist or counselor that could not only provide supportive advice but practical assistance.