Talking to myself

[Crystlas]

Hello my fellow bipolars.  I have had this strange habit for most of my life, in fact, I think since early childhood.  I have this constant voice in my head and I conversate with it all the time.  It is kind of me talking in my head,  but I ask it questions and I answer it.  Am I crazy or is this normal for bipolars?  I was getting ready for bed just now and having a conversation with my brain voice and thought, I wonder if other bipolars do this?  I talk to myself all the time, even out shopping.  People probably think I am a crazy person.   Atleast I am not a lonely person, I always have my brain friend! LOL  Thanks!

[Crystlas]

LOL, I just love those stares I get at the store.  I am really bad about it when I am grocery shopping.  Me and my brain friend just have a difficult time deciding what we want for food that week.  I have to argue with her all the darn time.  She gets on my nerves sometimes!! :-)  Seriously, I do have to speak outloud to make my decisions and my inner voice and I do have to negotiate!

[princessjammf]

:)   I not only hear that voice, but I've gotten strange looks at the store because I will talk with myself out loud (not so loud everyone hears me)  all of the time.
I asked my husband if he did this, because I assumed we all do it, but alas, we don't all have that problem...........
It makes me feel much better knowing I am not the only one that does this............I feel normal again (whatever normal is anyway................)

[FreeSpirit4Life]

I concur I love it but not the after effect's and It pulls me in I just can't go there with substances I have THAT kind of personality u know and it will be all I think about eventually and it can make me lazy at times but when I getmanic I need it to calm my mind down sooo now I do positive thing's with my manic episodes like wright poetry or even just wright feeling's and then I do art I love art I wish I pushed my self more there and had the $ to take classes to learn more I love to learn

[Crystlas]

I am so tired from yesterdays work and trying to keep up w/posts so bear with me.  Anyhow, I miss pot a hole heck of alot but quit because I do not want it messing with my meds or being bipolar.  It always makes me depressed after I use.  I love the high, hate the down.  I wish I could do it and not feel so yucky afterwards.  However, being stable is more important to me than getting high!

[FreeSpirit4Life]

U r funny crack me up and ur very wise I like the way u view things there's no beating around the bush with u u just come right out and say it but ur not rude or harsh about it either u do it in a graceful manner THANK YOU I REALLY RESPECT THAT  and sometimes the truth hurt's a little I try not to worry about what others think but I am a people p[leaser even if I am sacrificigmy self I need to learn how not to do that I then bottle it all in and then explode about the dunbest thing my biggest challenge and loudest voice my head is starting to hurt to much thinking LOL Im going into overload WOW I think I really just need to put my glasses on ugh I can't stand them and should never take them off but there I go again worried about my image and I'm home with my 5 year old now what sence does that make non at all LOL

[FreeSpirit4Life]

I use to smoke MJ all the time it stoped my head sooo I thought it was stopping the voices also but it stoped everything it gave me afalse image of happiness and it made thing's worse in the long run I could do the dash but not the marathon and life is a marathon if u won't the quick easy fix drug's will give u that but if u want the REAL U it takes a whole lot more work just like a relationship I think DLA is Sooo right and u know with age and experience comes knowledge if were willing to see that and accept that and by accepting ur self for who u really are the good and the bad because we all have both u will in time find happiness and this will make life easier and maybe u wont have to depend on medication but in the beginning it is a good way to balance ur brain and get through a lot of ur therpy stuff u r ashamed to say because these voices tell u everyone is judging and if they r ohhh well Dla is right if they only want to see that it's there loss I'm sure it took her a while to relise it and yes times r tough and u feel sooo alone but that's life one big chalange to over come now the question is r u going to win this war and relise this is a gift not a burden use it to ur advantage this disorder gives us thing's people wish they had but there r allways concequences with the good ther must be bad if not we couldnt appreciate the good with out hate we would never know how love felt it's the ying and the yang they come hand in hand just dont see the bad focus on the good it will be the only thing that will hold ur head up above the water in this time of struggle u either sink or swim here is ur life vest read it every day and u will be amased at the differrent things that pop out at u and how ur veiws change

[Mrkidd]

thank you