cant tolerate lots of people talking

[hell1971]

As some of you know I am not myself at the moment, last night I went to friends and everyone was talking and laughing. I felt like I was not connected, I couldnt stand the noise, I had to leave, it made me feel really edgy is this normal in bp world.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Talk to your doctor about this, visual hallucinations are supposed to be less common than the other ones and audio ones are supposed to be most common but I primarily have visual hallucinations.  Especially if they are in your central field of vision rather than just peripheral field, the former is even less frequent than the latter.

[hell1971]

I see things for a split second think they are real then turn back and know they are just a mind game, I dont know whats happening to me I feel like im going crazy

[paranoid_cataclysm]

You can be aware you are having psychosis... I became aware I was getting worse right now when I heard a helicopter flying over head and my first reaction was panic and to run for cover which I have no idea why since I never had any reason to.  I did it in games before but never real life.  I told a few people about it and they told me I should talk to my mental health care people.  It's more you have trouble being aware of what is symptoms and what is reality usually like especially unexpected sounds I can never tell right now if they really happened.

[starbunny]

I think that with mild psychosis you have more insight than severe psychosis when you have none. That is why when you have these mild symptoms it is best to go and get help rather than allow the symptoms to worsen on their own.

[hell1971]

from everything everyone has said to all my posts over the last week I feel like I have symptoms of mild psychosis but surley I wouldnt be this aware of it if I had it but I cant come up with any other silution, I know my spelling is bad but this is what is happening, I cant seem to spell or anything and I try really hard to work it out but I just cant do it.  

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Oh yeah I also just remembered I sort of have this problem in that some normal sounds, sights, touches, smells, etc. are actually physically painful for me for example.

[starbunny]

Totally, it can be so isolating. Sometimes my senses seemed to be tuned up so that just normal talking would be too loud and I would have my hands to my ears and have to go for some quiet space. I too have alienated myself from a lot of people because of this illness.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia but I used to have this kinda... it would stress me out just leaving my house to be around people... I sort of hated it because it even stressed me out hanging out with people I liked.  I used to be extremely preoccupied with working on crap partly as an excuse to stay by myself.  This ***** because I can't tell people that who I like for fear they won't understand and get offended I was trying to avoid them constantly.  I'm still like that really bad when it comes to people I don't know and stresses me out just being in crowds and I still sometimes try to avoid people even if I like them even on medication but not as often.  Sometimes I wouldn't even wave or say hi because I wanted to get away.  So many conflicting thoughts and feelings when it came to this.  I never wanted to do anything with friends either until medication.  Half of my family disowned me because of this when it was just because of my illness.  Wasn't because of depression or anything for me, I think it's either because of psychosis or negative symptoms in my illness but it also happens with other disorders.  I can't describe how frustrating it was feeling extremely lonely but not wanting to be around people at the same time.

[hell1971]

But are you having an episode during this time these things happen or are you stable

[Xila31]

Yeah, I talk to myself and pace in little circles a lot. I hate that. I just can't seem to shut up sometimes.

I do okay in groups of people that I know a lot better than in groups I don't It isn't the "crowd" that bothers me. It is the noise. The talking all around me. I do fine like a restaurant where it is low tones. I can even go to a baseball game once in a while. But like the mall at Christmas time gets me. Or if I'm in a big talking crowds a lot over a period of time it gets worse. It is just a low to mid grade aggitation, usually doesn't get so bad I freak out. But if I'm not doing well, it is worse.

Also, I seem to be having difficulty with my hearing and trying to focus on a conversation when there is background noise is getting hard for me. I don't know if that has something to do with it.

[Jade59]

I understand :(

[hell1971]

thanks all, "surrounded and nervous" is a good way to describe this but i do not always feel this usually i am fine in crouds and love a good group chat, so not sure what is going on, this morning i felt fine even was motivated to have a good clean out but now i find myself talking to myself in my head and unable to concentrate and unable to stop thinking about ways i may die. feel like i am going crazy slowly but surely

[Jade59]

Ooh..."surrounded and nervous"...that's a perfect way of describing it...

[Xila31]

I have always had this issue as well. As long as I can remember I don't like being in big groups of talking or noise unless I prepare myself. I even don't like watching sports much on t.v. sometimes because the noise of the audiance. It makes me feel surrounded and nervous.

[Jade59]

Yes, this happens to me too!  Just during Christmas, everyone was talking, the radio was playing and I felt complete sensory overload and had to go for a walk and get away.  Even though this was entirely my family who I'm comfortable around, the noise was too much.  It's also very difficult for me to pay attention to a conversation when many people are talking...like at the dinner table during a holiday when conversations are going on.  I can't seem to focus on just one conversation and end up just zoning the whole thing out.  

[ILADVOCATE]

Yes I've had this happen before. I know that it can happen from being psychotic and disconnected from people. But also, especially during mixed states a person can have a low frustration tolerance and have difficulties relating to people. Regardless it would be essential to inform your psychiatrist.