help feels like somethings happening to me again

[hell1971]

I think I may have been a little hypomanic over the last week but I am on Lithium and Epilim, its not been consistant so I wasnt worried, now I think maybe I am in a mixed state or something again. As I say the last two days I have had definate symptoms of hypomania but then have dropped during the day to either feeling steady or low. Today however I feel different I am really aggitated, feel like somethings brewing inside me, my vision is blurry or double on and off, I feel like im shaking inside, from the outside I appear normal although my husband suspected something wasnt right last night but didnt push it. I have been having trouble getting to sleep but have been getting ok sleep except the day before last when I only had 2-3 hrs, last night I felt like I needed to get some sleep so I took a sleeping pill and so I got 7 hours. I feel really anxious, am I just winding myself up, is this just anxiety or what? any advise would be good as its the holidays and I know after today it would have to wait until tuesday? please help im scared I dont want to go back to my last episode.

[hell1971]

Thank you for your comments and tips
I am just really fragile today and feel overwhelmed right now and just dont understand this whole bp thing.

[freebird227]

I'm not trying to convince you of anything or suggest that you are not taking care of yourselff, but you do have controll over outside stressors. It is your relationship to those stressors and how you internalize them makes all the difference in the world for  people like us.
Making the decision that you are powerless over those stressors Is Doing Something.Did you read carefully my first post? Does any of that make sence to you? Looking at other ways of dealing with things.
I hope the best for you

[hell1971]

thanks but i have been following everything im supposed to do that im in control of, outside stressors I cant do nothing about, they are not ones I can avoid, its a hopeless situation and I just dont think I care anymore, my mind is spazzing and i cant stand the noise anymore

[freebird227]

Oh yea , I forgot the main reason I responded to your post.
"Feels Like Something Is Happening To Me Again.
Something is happening
Happening to me
This emplies powerlessness over your symptoms.
Meds are great,,,,,they save many a life
But without behavior modifacation Im afraid you will continue this merry go round

[freebird227]

In a mixed state it is very common to have aggitation,anxiety,nervousness,anger etc. Thats why it is called mixed. Some of the best advice I ever got was to try to move the energy. Make sure I am med compliant. Do a quick feelings check on up comming events.Or an event that has gest passed.
Some things you can do is Think differently about what is oing on. Get the body moving, walking ,going to the gym, yoga,to name a few.
Get as much natural sun light as you can, breath deeper than you normally would, watch the food you are putting inyour body, try to cut back on sweets and caffine ( they make matters worse )Play soothing music instead of the tv ( sensory overload )
I hope some of these suggestions will help you alter your mood to a more confortable zone........Best Wishes