For about three years now, I have had a chronic feeling of sadness hanging over me in anything that I do. I am happy sometimes, but I always have a feeling like I am umbearably sad. I am only fourteen years old, and my mom seems to think that I just tell her that for attention, which I don't. I know that this isn't a normal feeling that people should have, because plenty of other people my age are happy, and while I can be happy it always comes down to me being sad. I always seem to feel like I am by myself no matter how many people tell me I am not. I always have a sense of lonliness. I have had problems with cutting myself, but am no longer doing it. I have been abused in the past and am now out of that situation, and two years ago, my dad (of whom was the abuser) died. Is my constant feeling of being sad and feeling lonely due to my past, or is it some type of depression?