Signs of Depression?

[BrunetteBimbo]

okay, so lately ive been feeling like crap.
ive been having constant mood swings, sometimes im happy, and sometimes i dont want to be living anymore.
everything i have been doing lately i have had a guilt feeling towards it.
sometimes ive wanted to scream but instead i burst out into tears.
Ive found myself crying alot lately, feeling **** about myself
ive often had suicidal thoughts, i know for a fact i would never do it, but i cant help but think.. my friends have not been the best of people to have around, one friend imparticular she always causes me to get angry and i just think and wished she were dead.
i havent been out much lately, only to school and back, i always used to go out but since ive had this feeling ive been overly tierd and feeling sick all the time.
i just dont seem to be myself anymore, i always feel sad.
ive been applying for saturday jobs, one day i have it all planned out and im really excited, the next day when i rang up i was still happy, i got offered a place to work so i told them id call back asap, but as soon as i put the phone down i felt useless for some reason, i felt pathetic and i called back and declined the job. i really want to be my old self again but i feel asif i cant do it where i live now, i want to get away but i cant, my options came through, and i know if i move anywhere else i wouldnt get a chance half as good as this

i told my mum yesturday and asked if it was depression, she said it was all in my mind i have a perfect life and nothing could be wrong, but i know for a fact it isnt in my mind.

do i have depression or any signs? if so should i seek help?

[ImSoDANGEROUSS]

hey,
i am also a girl with depression and i take anti-depressants called ciprolex, i think that how you spell it . anyways i have been through all the things that you have said i would encourage you to go see a therapist because as weird as it sounds they actually help alot . although i wouldn't go to the school councilers either because they usually arent as good .

[M4Y0U]

Depression is a real illness with physiological and psychological causes as well.

I really urge you to seek for help. A psychologist might sounds like the best place to start but you can go to the doctor too.

M4

[BrunetteBimbo]

About the job : i dont particulary know, i put the phone down and thought about it, i felt asif i would be making a fool out of myself, i felt pathetic for even considering getting a job and thats when i rang back.

and yeah we have mentors at school, but i dont want school to get involved because.. well.. i dont really know i just dont like the thought of having them know my private life..

i want to go see someone and see if there is something to take, so thats why i told my mum, not in all detail though, i skipped the suicidal thoughts i dont want her worried their is enough stress on her as it is without the thought of her daughter thinking death thoughs, but she just said its all in my mind, if i blank it, it will go, but it isnt

[piggymalone]

Hi.
From what you're saying, it does sound like you have a lot of the feelings associated with depression. Mood swings, sadness, feeling tired and lethargic, feeling useless, suicidal thoughts. About the job you turned down, was it beacuase you did'nt feel confident, or suddenly just did'nt care.
Anyway, you should talk to somebody about how you're feeling. By the sounds of it, you're at school. Do they have councillors or mentors you can talk to?, or a member of staff that you get on well with?. If not, think about making an appointment to see your GP.  These people will take you seriously, won't think you're being stupid and will be happy to help you.  Oh....and don't let anyone tell you it's all "imagination" as though it's not a real problem.

Best wishes
A