No question.

[Poo44clooner]

Just found out that they were right about me.
I'm a freak.
I'm invisible.
No one can hear me.
So don't bother.

[innerchild09]

Thank you, Yeah I think family can push your buttons. In my case I dont think its what they were doing. I think I was forgotten. I dont see them that much but still it does hurt when your own family doesnt think about how you feel. Its like they dont even notice.

I hope talking about it has helped. Im sorry that you are going through so much. I understand why this is depressing. Im sure if you had it your way everything would be wonderful with your family and there wouldnt be anyone being left out or treated differentally. I know I wish things were good with my family but truth is its not and I cant really do anything about it. To me I think of family like ours dysfunctional family.

I know what you mean feeling like that no matter what you try to do or no matter the choice either way you lose. Thats how I feel. Not just with family but really anything I go for. Feels like no matter what I choose it ends up hurting me more.

And you are welcome hope my post helped some. And no you are not forgotten.

[Poo44clooner]

Sorry to hear about the passing of your uncle and how your family did not give you a chance to write your final goodbyes to him.  Sometimes families hurt you the most because they know which buttons to push.  I hope you get to feeling better about it.
Sounds like we're 2 peas in a pod.  I heart aches so much that I cannot see my parents, it has already affected my depression, and it is getting pretty bad. I am also feeling like I have the flu and my stomach hurts so much I can't eat. Stopped exercising and doing all those other good things that made me joyful inside.  It is a no win situation.  I lose either way.
Thanks for spending a few minutes in sharing your day with me and reminding me that I am not forgotten.
FREAK OF THE FAMILY

[innerchild09]

Im sorry that you have nightmares if you stay away from your family. I dont know but I was wondering do you think you feel guilty when you dont see them? I was wondering cuz maybe thats why you are having these dreams. Still I think it sounds like minus the dreams part that staying away might be the best choice if you feel your own mental health is worse being around them because you should do whats best for you and if it means keeping the family in your life or avoiding them a lot. Maybe not forever if that helps but just dont see them as much. Just what I was thinking. Still I know nightmares arent a good thing either. Hopefully youll be able to get some peaceful sleep weather you avoid them or not.

Just wanted to share a bit of my resent feeling like a freak of the family. So recentally I had an uncle who passed away. So I wasnt aware of but everyone was writing notes and stuff as in memorial for this memory book. No one bothered to tell me about it at all. I would have put my own thoughts in it. It upset me a lot when I found out and I started crying cuz no one bothered to tell me about it. So I wasnt even able to write my own memory thing for him. Even my mom knew about it.

Anyway Im listening and I understand how you feel.

[Poo44clooner]

I am glad to know that I am not alone. For now I will have to stay away for my own mental health, but I really love my mother and father so much. When I stay away I get terrible nightmares and awful panic attacks, waking up unable to breathe.  Then I have to go see them and it makes me feel better.
Can't win for losing.
FREAK OF THE FAMILY

[innerchild09]

Im so sorry that your family makes you feel this way and they wont even listen to you. That is really hard. I understand what its like to feel like the freak of the family. I feel really uncomfortable talking about my issues with them cuz I dont feel they understand. They havent actually called me a freak but I feel like they treat me differently. Its really hard. I know its hard to not be around family cuz you know they are family but if its really that bad then maybe not seeing them is the best thing you can do for you. Either that or just try to ignore their ignorance and dont let what they say pull you down.

[senile1]

I think you need to move on with your life. I know it hurts to be rejected. What is the deal with them? I think that whatever their problem is with you, that they should at least talk to you.Just by talking to you, they act like you have done something awful. Whatever  it is, you got to forgive. Maybe you need to forgive them and start over somewhere new. You sound like a very nice person. They may get you really depressed, and it is not worth it. Get out, make some new friends and quit calling yourself a freak.