how to control it?

[Alexis001]

something happened that changed the course of my life, and i have been depressed for a month now. Not only have i been unable to sleep, get out of bed and get my appetite back, im also suffering physically.. I haven't had my period for a month, my stomache is killing me, same goes for my head.. I haven't been out of the house for a month and whenever i get ready to go out i back down and stay home bcz i know that, while being outside, all i'll be thinking of is when i'll get back home.. I don't even have the energy to take a bath, all i ever do is cry and it has made me sick i'm actually taking pills to get my period and im feverish all the time i'm sick of being in pain i'm sick of meds i feel old even though i'm only 19! I asked my bf for a break and i'm not talking to my friends nor to my family, even though i'm desperate for someone to hear me out.. When i look at myself in the mirror i feel so ugly my face is always pale bcz of what i'm going through and this isn't encouraging me to go out and see my bf.. I have real low self esteem.. Can anyone plz give me tips to get rid of this? I don't want to see a doctor nor a psychologist.. I just want to deal with this alone

[kellyb314]

I know exactly what you're going through. I went through something that completely changed my life and I was severely, severely depressed because of it. I didn't leave my house for 7 months. It sounds like you and I deal with sadness the same way. Alone. When you're sad you prefer to be sad alone. I'm the exact same way, which is fine, but you do need to se a doctor before this gets any worse. After months of suffering, I finally saw a doctor and he saved my life. I was put on antidepressants and it really gave me my life back. I was on them for 8 months and I'm back to my normal self. I recommend seeing a doctor and just letting him or her know what you're going through and that you can't live like this and you need some help to get back on your feet. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I know you can't see it because it's so ******* dark, but it's there. it's faint, but it really is there and with each step you take the light will get brighter. I promise, I promise, I promise. I know you're exhausted. Depression is exhausting and nothing seems worth the energy, but, please just go see a doctor and ask for some help. It can't hurt you any worse than you're hurting right now. Everything will be okay. I can't say that it's okay right now, because it's not, but it definitely WILL BE okay. And please message me if you wanna talk. I'm always here

[Anneinside]

An appointment with a doctor to rule out pregnancy and other medical problems along with a therapist to talk to could help you immensely.

[mammo]

I feel you need to seek professional help with this.  You need a good check-up by your GP and if all is okay....then it's time to address having depression. You say something happened,,,and this may well be the cause of your depression.  You need to talk to someone about what happened so you can move beyond this.  Depression can hold you hostage, making you sad, angry, unmotivated, tired, no interest in friends or doing the things you once enjoyed.  You need to talk about what happened to a friend or family member, but talk!  You can talk to us or private message any of us if you feel more comfortable with that.  But you need help addressing what has happened.  I know you don't want to see a doctor but you may have to if you keep trying to live with what you have bottled up inside.  Plus, you need to get out and see your friends and start living your life again, make-up can work wonders if you feel you are pale.  But what's more concerning is how you look and feel on the inside, you need to get yourself to a better place and maybe just talking to us can help. At least it ould be a good start!  We've all got our own stories so we understand and care.  I hope knowing others understand and have been where you are helps.

[stephanie1o]

your periods could be to do with not eating properly are you sure your not pregnant sounds to me that you may have a touch of anxiety and depression