Suicide or not?

[moonlight22]

Is there anything wrong with thinking about harming yourself?  Sometimes I think of ways to end my life.  If I am on my way to work, as the train approches, I wonder, how much would it hurt? would I survive? would I want to survive?  I have thought about overdoseing, rat poision, and slitting my wrist.  I don't think I have the courage to do anything.  I don't really feel depressed, although I think I might have been at some time recently.  Sometimes I wish I would not wake in the morning.  Even when my moods are normal I get these thoughts.  Should I seek help.  By the way, I feel normal today, but I have thought about it.
Thanks

[blondie337]

hi, i am going through exctaly the same thing and have tried ending my life people dont understand how serious this is, when you are so depressed and you think there is no way out, when u try ending your life you dont really relise what you are ding your mind takes over! a few days ago i lost my friend he hung him self out side his pub i am devasted what stops me is my family and wht damage it will cause them. i wuldnt say its a phase you need help meds do help. ppl say get over i have told my mum but she doesnt understand she says why are u depressed only if she knew why, i am here if u need help :)

[Jaquta]

I think it is difficult to ascertain whether it is just a phase or not.
21 years of age represents an important life transition for many of us.
My personal opinion is that if you have issues now that you should seek help.  Help is almost always best sought in the early stages.
I don't think it matters if your family don't understand as long as you get the support you need.  You can always work through your family's reaction with a therapist.
I know family support can mean a lot but sometimes some families just aren't able to offer that.  I think your mother's comment about your eyes shows a degree of concern.
I don't think you can ever truly know how someone will react to things you share.  Your family may be extremely supportive.
Your friends possibly feel uncomfortable with the topic (which can be sensitive).  They may even feel powerless to help you.  They are right in saying that you need help but you need to get that from the appropriate place and people.

I'm going through this too but I think it is us who needs to seek treatment.  I also think that we need to do this appropriately by talking to the right people.


I'm sorry for your loss blondie.
My family don't understand either.  Mine say I have nothing to be stressed about!!  That when my stress levels are through the roof.
It seems a little ironic that some people push us away when we need their support the most.

To moonlight.  I would encourage you to talk to your family.  I would definitely discuss this with a doctor too.

[whodunnit]

Hi again Moon,

It matters not what anyone else feels, thinks or says Moon. It's your life you are talking about. Do not ever let anyone else affect how strongly you protect your own rights to life and freedom.

Suicidal thoughts are not a phase. It's depressive thinking. Be clear about this with yourself. You are thinking, and planning how to kill yourself. Do you get that? That's not something anyone but you can know and it is only you who can seek the help you need.

It is not a phase. It's an illness.

As to family and friends. They have no idea what you feel and what to say if you try talking to them about this. Most will try to convince you that you are OK but they do not know a thing, you do. You are the only one who knows what you think and how serious it is.

Do you think your family would still laugh if you did suicide? No, they wouldn't. They'd be devastated, shocked and would suffer mentally for probably the rest of their lives.

They don't find the balance usually of supporting us when we feel suicidal. They panic and want us to just stop it. Somehow.

The way to do that is by seeking valid treatment and sticking with it until the thoughts pass. As they are temporary. Always temporary. Might seem forever and I felt that too but today? It's 10 years since I felt that. Temporary.

If you can save your own life do you really care what anyone else thinks or says? You learn they are ignorant and will never understand unless they feel it. I was that way myself until life taught me a thing or two.

Go see a doc and quickly. Please.

[mammo]

Again, whodunnit is right on!  You cannot live your life ever, worrying about others.  Your friends probably just don't know what to say, it happens.  Your mother is concerned, talk to her, we understand more than you think.

[HVAC]

My chemical imbalance had me thinking of suicide compulsively like as an alcoholic I think of drinking. I have learned with both just because I have a thought I do not have to carry it out. As soon as I got on depakote a mood stabilizer the compulsion went away.

If you have not been evaluated by a professional it would be a good idea.

Family members are sometimes too close and do not want to see us the way we really are. There is no shame in getting help.

Take care of yourself,
Alex

[vanlissa]

i do not think that having suisidal thoughts is unusal. every one thinks of suiside every now and again, but to live in it every day is when you should get help.and yes i have thought about suiside to.if you would like to talk more on it i would be glad to help. I want to also tell you that you are not alone in those thoughts many people think the same thoughts that you do some times they even dream about it and then end up actualy doing it a few years later. i know this because one ofmy friends did that. so dont do it there is help. go get some help, please.