depressed and suicidal over a botched surgery....

[Jessica2384]

Im 28, and in june 2011 my life took a complete turn. I had a botched labiaplasty since then i feel like i want to die. I feel very depressed and completely devestated. Im in therapy, but noone seems to understand how i feel.  I have developed ocd over this im driving myself insane. I barley have a life anymore. My dr prescribed me lexapro, but i havnt tried it yet. Im lost, alone, and scared.  I feel no man will accept me and i feel completely destroyed sexually.... i cry everyday and live in fear that im abnormal and my lifes ruiend.

[brice1967]

I'm not for sure that there's anything you can do about the botched surgery.  It sounds like a horrible situation and I am very sorry that you are having to go through this.

You can however do something about the way you feel.  Part of it has to do with seeing someone (mental health professional) about how you feel, potentially taking some medicine (there are some truly wonderful medicines out there to help with how we feel) and work on being the best you there is.

I went through a horrible depression for decades.  What I couldn't do was get out of my own way in regards to what other people thought of me.  That alone kept me down....  I had a very low self acceptance and very little appreciation for my self and the life I could have.  It took a hell of a lot of work to realize that I did have value and self worth, but once I did find it, it became easier to move on.  I had to accept what I could not change and work hard to change what I could.

A good therapist and a bit of medicine worked on that end and my work to find a better me worked on this end.  It's tough but it's doable.

[llenaa]

Hi Jessica, I had the same surgery and I feel the same way! I had mine done in dec 19/11 and since then my life has been a walking nightmare. I have been having nightmares and thinking negative. I'm so tired I just want out of this. mine doesnt look that bad but its the sensation that have decreased i thik... i want to sleep forever!

[llenaa]

Hi Jessica, I had the same surgery and I feel the same way! I had mine done in dec 19/11 and since then my life has been a walking nightmare. I have been having nightmares and thinking negative. I'm so tired I just want out of this. mine doesnt look that bad but its the sensation that have decreased i thik... i want to sleep forever!

[RainLover71]

Take the doctor to court & go for damages.You are fully entitled to.

[Hobby10]

You really have something in this life if someone loves you for you.  The unique qualities that make you, you.  And if you got scars or imperfections someone loves you anyway.   Nobody is perfect.  I wish I was thinner.  But whn I was thinner I had a hard time feeling completely comfortable then either.  Don't use ths as an excuse to make u unhappy.  Love yourself just as u are.  Be happy today.  I'm sorry if I sound bossy.  Trying to help.  Best wishes.  

[Jessica2384]

Labiaplasty is a method used to reduce the labia and make them even or less protruding. In my case the doctor botched me by removing them completely.

[Jessica2384]

Yeah it is a shame, i cant believe its making me feel so badly i want my life back. I dont want to feel like this

[Anneinside]

It's a shame that cosmetic surgery could cause you so much emotional pain.

[Hobby10]

What is a labiaplasty?  Sorry not familiar.  U aren't alone although it may feel like it.  OCD ain't a death sentence just makes life harder.  I think we can work at reprogramming our thoughts and brains to a degree.  Try to just relax and enjoy life.  Lov yourself.  Be there for u and your needs.  B a good friend to others.  Care about the life you hav been given.  And u got us if u need us

[RainLover71]

You shouldn't feel this way and you seem to have incredible strength.Sorry about the procedure but life needs to go on.We have an excellent OCD community here at medhelp.