pain without love .pain can,t get enough

[hurtinkurt]

after a lower back surgery in early spring ang cosistent ongoing back pain i find that the trials and tribulations to be more then which i can bear,try this ,ohh take a shot in the back,take more meds.and aftr loosing a good high school friend ,now i find that all i got is time waiting.waiting for a beginning  and waiting for an end to this.people who have said if you need anything ,just call.only to find they don,t really want to help.now i see thats all i have is time ,and living in the woods of n,wisconsin also can be very lonely.i think i can count my friends on 2 fingers .i just don,t know anymore?  i live quietly and alone

[Cindee56]

I totally understand.  I have back problems, arthritis and chronic pain.  I lost my best friend (or I thought she was) because she just didn't want to deal with me and said I was *a complainer.*  You think people care, but get disappointed.  I know what it's like to feel alone and depressed, and I have a husband and son.

I just keep trying, that's all you can do.  Recently I started medication for depression and anxiety.  I'm hoping it will help, but it takes time.  Have you talked to a psychiatrist about it, or maybe a therapist?  

[mammo]

I have lived your kind of loneliness, and it can suck big time!  But life is interesting.  There you are living in the woods away from the rat race, bored and lonely, while most of us living in this rat race would give anything to be living like you!  Do whatever you need in order to recover and feel better.  I know it's difficult when it involves the back.  I assume it is temporary and you have lots to look forward to.  As for friends, most people only have a few they can truly count on, be thankful for the 2 you do have.  Do you journal?  It can be very therapeutic to put your feelings down on paper, please try this.  Get involved on these blogs and offering support to others.  With all you've been through I'm sure you have some words of wisdom to offer others.  Always here to talk, or just listen you're not alone.  Take care........