why do i want to runaway from my family?

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why do i want to runaway from my family,ive been with my partnetr for 6years we have 4kids,i am 21 and feel trapped i love my family but since i was 15 i have been changin nappys n makin bottles i feel so guilty for feelin like this!!i just want to up n leave n never look back im so confused i dont know what to do....i have no1 to talk to,i have had such a difficult upbringin im so depressed about everythin i am a housewife n all my friends are on hol partyin havin girly fun i just feel miserable but ever so guilty onmy partner n my kids :( xx

lisa1986d · Answer

thanks for the advise guys,i just seem to not be helpin myself!!i am so shut down from people close to me i have been to docs i am on anti depressants this is 3rd wk now dont feel any happier but im thinkin more positive thats a start ill keep you all updated thanks for the advise :)xx

Melissa70817 · Answer

This is totally normal. I too went through the same thing but I acted on it and went out partying. I was 16 when I had my son. I have so much guilt now that I'm 40 for doing what I did back then. I left my son with my mother and took off for about a year. He lived with her until he was 6 when he came back to live with me. Maybe you should try counseling or talk to others on here, just talking to others here can help you also.

Jikan · Answer

Namaste,

Having a child at such an early age can certainly disrupt your life in a negative way. As suggested, ask your partner to watch over your child on ocassion, so that you can have a "girls night out". All relationships should be caring, sharing and fair, so he should not have a problem with this.

If you are not on any medication for what appears to be depression, you need to seek the advice of a professional healthvare provider who can take a psychological profile and develope a treatment plan which may or may not include the use of medication(s) and/or adjunct therapy.

This is so important because if there is a chemical imbalance within your brain, your condition will only get worse.

I sincerely hope that you receive the treatment you need and feel better soon!

Jikan

triedeverymed · Answer

I know the feeling and I know the guilt. I wish I was alone all the time but I have a family and a great child but I can't give him what he needs right now.
You need to know you are not the only one out there who feels this way. I feel trapped sometimes and just want to be alone, not to go out and party but just to be alone.
Hang in there, do you take any meds for depression? It may help ease some of these symptoms. I'm on a mood stabelizer and it's helped for a year but I feel it's time for a med change.
Hope you feel better soon!!!

Alleykatt34 · Answer

I can certainly relate to what you are talking about, friends!  I was 19 and married (Married before I graduated hs) and had a baby.  All my friends wanted to go out to bars and party ect.  I didn't want to leave my daughter. Some of them would come to our house and party after the baby was put to bed.  I was 23 by the time I had my third and last baby.  Typically now I don't have any friends, but I don't have the worry of losing them because I "can't" go out.  Now, my youngest is 11 now, I can pretty much do as I wish, but I wish to be with them.  I really don't know what I'm getting at..maybe your partner could watch the kids for a few hours once a month and you could go out??  Sorry I couldn't offer more advice. :)

Stay positive, 
Alley