would I ever be happy?

[edita0522]

I really dont remember the last time I felt happy, worry free, just relax. I have been depress practically my whole life. Im seeing a psycologist have been takin diff meds cuz none of them will work . I am currently on prozac and feel just as miserable as the first day! feeling sohopeless . just really wish my lIfe was over!

[sara12345]

If you've tried anti-depressants in all the major classes at peak doses that you can tolerate, then I bet that you haven't tried MAO Inhibitors.  They are not prescribed very often because there are foods that cannot be eaten while on the med.  I took them when no other med available at the time worked for me.  That was the happiest I ever was in my life when I took them.  Ask your doctor about it.  Also if nothing has worked, you could try ECT.  It's not the nightmare that it was many decades ago.  What do you have to lose when you feel so bad?  Good luck to you.

[edita0522]

thanks for responding I am really trying but often feel like Im stuck in this big dark cloud with no way out!

[CrazyK9s]

I feel you edita.  I am in a similar situation.  I was recently diagnosed as bi-polar, but for me it is "uni-polar".  I don't get the euphoria, the happiness, the queen of the world, feeling associated with that "other polar".  ***** to get the diagnosis of "bi-polar" as it is, at LEAST give me that other "polar"!!

[gofio]

Whatever you do, don't wish your life away If you feel any inclination to 'end it all, you must contact a health professional & ask for help. Sorry that your meds have failed to work. When in a disturbed state it's very hard to remember not being always depressed/anxious. It's a wonderful world, really it is.Life can be great for you again, you need to get more help now. Never hesitate to ask for further help if you feel that you're 'losing it'. Cheer up in whatever way you used to. Relaxation exercises/music/reading/art or whatever you find works. Don't despair. Good Luck!