Worry about your own problem and take care of your health by taking appropriate treatment.we should not give undue importance to the out sides which are not under control. Take care of yous self.
Thanks for ur valuable reply.
Yeah, am aware that large volume of depression is oppressing me apart from Vericosle illness. Though, me being a virgin and working between the law and the police, the recent surge in wrong rape case upon boy friends and consexual partners in the country had struck me badly and just agonising me every day. I just witnessed a case of rape in our local in which the victim was a dalit and had had affairs and sex with several boys in the local. When a true lover come to know of this, he murdered her. Police tortured every men in that village due to women agitation. Police wanted every men to masturbate the presence of women cops and humiliated every one. Finally they left all the men and arrested a bike lifter who had no connection to the case.
Being close to these cases,
I had feeling that the law provide ultimate power to women file any sex cases upon men if they are in relationship/married at any time. Just men are hapless.
At one point of time, i am exhausted. To be truth, fear of having sex.
Marriage talks seem on the verge of casting you into a deep depression, with a variety of predictable symptoms.
I think a starting point is to slow down or stop those talks, for now.