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AGP Easter Egg-A-Thon
Our ovaries are working overtime producing the highest quality eggs with minimal loss-of-product this Easter Season. The DH Sperm-finders need to step up at the Easter Egg Hunt this year and find those Golden Eggs to maximize reproduction and ensure future hunts for generations to come!
Helen, I hear you loud and clear... when I was feeling miserable the other day I just went and lay on the bed for a few minutes thinking DH was busy making his special pasta sauce so he would think I was sitting at my computer and that would be that. Guess he noticed I wasn't at my computer and came looking for me. When I tried to tell him what was wrong, I didn't really express myself very well. Not very easy to explain exactly what's wrong really is it... I mean it's hardly as if it would make sense to say "I want a baby and I want it now and I don't want to have to do anymore of these stupid injections and I don't want to have to gain any more weight for no reason and I don't want to have to go and see that nasty doctor any more!"
So as a result of my feeble nonsensical explanation DH just said I should have told him exactly what I wanted to know from the doctor or I should have spoken to him myself.
And at that he went back to his pasta sauce and left me feeling even more miserable.
But then he came back as I was busying myself tidying clothes in my closet and he pulled me away and gave me a big hug and just held me for a while.
Later that night rather than pointing out that the last thing I had needed was for him to lay blame on me, I thanked him for coming back and giving me a hug and told him that I'd really needed it and he said "I'm learning".
I know he doesn't really understand but I appreciate immensely that he's willing to accept that he doesn't really understand and to learn that sometimes I just need him to hold me.
The funny thing is I've started to realise that he resents me being on this web site!!! I asked him why but he gave me an answer that didn't really say anything so I left it. I wonder if he's jealous. I did try to explain that I don't have any female friends here in Syria who I can talk with and that this is where I go to talk to other women. I didn't mention that the people here understand what I'm dealing with because I think that might be one of the things that would bother him... to insinuate that he doesn't understand.
Ah well...
Chins up ladies... I know Thanksgiving is gone but lets try to think of all we have to be thankful for.
So as a result of my feeble nonsensical explanation DH just said I should have told him exactly what I wanted to know from the doctor or I should have spoken to him myself.
And at that he went back to his pasta sauce and left me feeling even more miserable.
But then he came back as I was busying myself tidying clothes in my closet and he pulled me away and gave me a big hug and just held me for a while.
Later that night rather than pointing out that the last thing I had needed was for him to lay blame on me, I thanked him for coming back and giving me a hug and told him that I'd really needed it and he said "I'm learning".
I know he doesn't really understand but I appreciate immensely that he's willing to accept that he doesn't really understand and to learn that sometimes I just need him to hold me.
The funny thing is I've started to realise that he resents me being on this web site!!! I asked him why but he gave me an answer that didn't really say anything so I left it. I wonder if he's jealous. I did try to explain that I don't have any female friends here in Syria who I can talk with and that this is where I go to talk to other women. I didn't mention that the people here understand what I'm dealing with because I think that might be one of the things that would bother him... to insinuate that he doesn't understand.
Ah well...
Chins up ladies... I know Thanksgiving is gone but lets try to think of all we have to be thankful for.
Lisa,
Thank you so much for your words of support. Me and dh never had a single fight and he never threw a tantrum even once but he does want me to be back to my “rational” self. Of course, there is nothing rational about infertility so my behavior throws him off, I guess. You are right about crying helping to deal with emotions that sort of accumulate and need an outlet. I did throw myself a pity party once or twice but the only guest at those parties is my cat, Cuddles (I posted her pic). I hide my struggles from everyone except people on this forum and my dh and I do try our ttc struggles not affecting other aspects of our lives.
If clomid works best for you perhaps you should ask about upping the dose to 150 (were you taking 100mg?). Of course clomid can thin your lining so you should be careful about that as well.
How is your Easter weekend? I hope you did not give in and let your ex back into your life. He sounds like bad news.
Miky,
I do not gain weight on b/c although my bbs are definitely bigger. I wish I had this cup size when I was in high school :)
Unfortunately, I keep having light bleeding and AF cramping this past week that's very uncomfortable. I think AF really wants to show but b/c keeps it out.
Thank you so much for your words of support. Me and dh never had a single fight and he never threw a tantrum even once but he does want me to be back to my “rational” self. Of course, there is nothing rational about infertility so my behavior throws him off, I guess. You are right about crying helping to deal with emotions that sort of accumulate and need an outlet. I did throw myself a pity party once or twice but the only guest at those parties is my cat, Cuddles (I posted her pic). I hide my struggles from everyone except people on this forum and my dh and I do try our ttc struggles not affecting other aspects of our lives.
If clomid works best for you perhaps you should ask about upping the dose to 150 (were you taking 100mg?). Of course clomid can thin your lining so you should be careful about that as well.
How is your Easter weekend? I hope you did not give in and let your ex back into your life. He sounds like bad news.
Miky,
I do not gain weight on b/c although my bbs are definitely bigger. I wish I had this cup size when I was in high school :)
Unfortunately, I keep having light bleeding and AF cramping this past week that's very uncomfortable. I think AF really wants to show but b/c keeps it out.
Once again, you've all posted so much and I can't write much as it's late here and I desperately need sleep as my sister just arrived today and we've been up since the wee hours tidying and cooking and all sorts in anticipation of her arrival but thanks Jen and Fiona for letting me know I'm not the only one who is "hormone central"!
Helen, thanks for being so supportive! My appointment went well and I had b/w done which I got the results for today... All they said is that my results were very good and to start the Menogan today which we have done so another 10 days or so and it'll be retrieval time. I so wish you all the best for the next try Helen.
Miky, thank you very much for letting me know that about your first cycle... certainly make sme feel better!
Heather, hope you're feeling better.
Dee, sorry I haven't replied to your pm but my DH will kill me if I don't come to bed so I'll just say here... thanks for sending it!!!
night night all
Helen, thanks for being so supportive! My appointment went well and I had b/w done which I got the results for today... All they said is that my results were very good and to start the Menogan today which we have done so another 10 days or so and it'll be retrieval time. I so wish you all the best for the next try Helen.
Miky, thank you very much for letting me know that about your first cycle... certainly make sme feel better!
Heather, hope you're feeling better.
Dee, sorry I haven't replied to your pm but my DH will kill me if I don't come to bed so I'll just say here... thanks for sending it!!!
night night all
Hi Helen,
I'm very sorry you are going through a rough patch. It happens to all of us. But I do think you have had the most uphill struggles this past month. Even the best of us would begin to loose steam. Your crying is actually very productive. It helps you release and sort out all the emotions in this journey. I'd be more worried if you weren't having a few crying fits. Men process things totally differently. For your dh maybe getting lost in work, or having a temper tantrum, or trying to control everything around him might be how he handles and processes his emotions (I don't know him, so I'm not making a judgement on dh, just the typical male). But, for us, we cry. That's just the way it is. So, you go ahead and cry. Tell dh Lisa said it's very productive, and I do know about these things. (-:
I'm very sorry you are going through a rough patch. It happens to all of us. But I do think you have had the most uphill struggles this past month. Even the best of us would begin to loose steam. Your crying is actually very productive. It helps you release and sort out all the emotions in this journey. I'd be more worried if you weren't having a few crying fits. Men process things totally differently. For your dh maybe getting lost in work, or having a temper tantrum, or trying to control everything around him might be how he handles and processes his emotions (I don't know him, so I'm not making a judgement on dh, just the typical male). But, for us, we cry. That's just the way it is. So, you go ahead and cry. Tell dh Lisa said it's very productive, and I do know about these things. (-:
Hey Helen!
No AF yet...my new RE thinks it will not come for another 2 weeks at least since my Beta is negative only since this last Thursday...
You know what?I was so afraid of going another 8 months to lower my beta that I'm a little more relaxed now..whenever AF comes whe is welcome at this point!
The plan is to start B/C as soon as I get AF for at least a month since I will not be in the city for almost a month until May 2 and then we'll see.
You are on week 5 of BC?last time I was on the pill for so long I gained 4 pound....How are you feeling?
I think about you a lot.
Magda:My first IVF in 2007 I had 35 eggs..Only 30 fertilized and at the end I had 2 Blast and 3 to freeze.Most doctors do not like when we produce so many eggs.they think is bad for quality.I know that they want me to produce less eggs of better quality next time.
But ,like you,I fear they are going to give me not enough meds and then I will not have enough...I guess that we have to trust our RE and pray !!!
Hugs to all,
Miky
No AF yet...my new RE thinks it will not come for another 2 weeks at least since my Beta is negative only since this last Thursday...
You know what?I was so afraid of going another 8 months to lower my beta that I'm a little more relaxed now..whenever AF comes whe is welcome at this point!
The plan is to start B/C as soon as I get AF for at least a month since I will not be in the city for almost a month until May 2 and then we'll see.
You are on week 5 of BC?last time I was on the pill for so long I gained 4 pound....How are you feeling?
I think about you a lot.
Magda:My first IVF in 2007 I had 35 eggs..Only 30 fertilized and at the end I had 2 Blast and 3 to freeze.Most doctors do not like when we produce so many eggs.they think is bad for quality.I know that they want me to produce less eggs of better quality next time.
But ,like you,I fear they are going to give me not enough meds and then I will not have enough...I guess that we have to trust our RE and pray !!!
Hugs to all,
Miky
Heather,
I am so sorry you are feeling so sick. If you cannot keep anything down don’t be afraid to go to the ER. It’s very important that you stay hydrated. They can give you some iv fluids and anti-nausea meds through iv. It was the only way I could take those drugs without throwing them all up.
Miky,
Did you get AF? I hope it does not keep you waiting.
I totally understand the way you feel about ttc and this forum. Men sometimes don’t get our fixation with reaching this goal. My dh just told me that I am getting too depressed and self-destructive and how “unproductive” my crying is. At least here people understand how I feel.
Dee,
Sorry about all of the nasty side-effects. I hope it all pays off this cycle though.
Jen, J_A and sasparilla,
Good luck with the IUI. I hope 2ww will go by fast for all of you and this will be your month!
Sam,
How are you doing? Where are you in your cycle? Please post something about yourself.
Magda,
How was your doc. visit? What’s the news? I think that having fewer but higher quality eggs is a good strategy. Recall that you only used 6 out of 30 last cycle and there were few grade 1 embryos that you could keep after the transfer.
Ttc is such an emotional rollercoaster. We all break down at some point. I am glad your dh is there to help you through.
I had a bit of a rough patch but like Mary said, the world keeps turning even when you feel like it’s crashing down. So, I have no choice but keep going. Tomorrow I start week 5 of my b/c….
I am so sorry you are feeling so sick. If you cannot keep anything down don’t be afraid to go to the ER. It’s very important that you stay hydrated. They can give you some iv fluids and anti-nausea meds through iv. It was the only way I could take those drugs without throwing them all up.
Miky,
Did you get AF? I hope it does not keep you waiting.
I totally understand the way you feel about ttc and this forum. Men sometimes don’t get our fixation with reaching this goal. My dh just told me that I am getting too depressed and self-destructive and how “unproductive” my crying is. At least here people understand how I feel.
Dee,
Sorry about all of the nasty side-effects. I hope it all pays off this cycle though.
Jen, J_A and sasparilla,
Good luck with the IUI. I hope 2ww will go by fast for all of you and this will be your month!
Sam,
How are you doing? Where are you in your cycle? Please post something about yourself.
Magda,
How was your doc. visit? What’s the news? I think that having fewer but higher quality eggs is a good strategy. Recall that you only used 6 out of 30 last cycle and there were few grade 1 embryos that you could keep after the transfer.
Ttc is such an emotional rollercoaster. We all break down at some point. I am glad your dh is there to help you through.
I had a bit of a rough patch but like Mary said, the world keeps turning even when you feel like it’s crashing down. So, I have no choice but keep going. Tomorrow I start week 5 of my b/c….
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