Can anyone help

[dreamer7920]

I have had a really bad year.  Since I was 18 yrs old (I am 31) I have not been on any BCP.  I had a real hard time with doctors all year last year with trying to figure out what was wrong with me.  I was having major stomach pain.  I ended up having surgery in August 2010 and they found a cyst on both ovaries, endometriosis, and scar tissue so as this was all taken care of I started my cycle on August 21st and then got on the 3 month depolupron shot on Sept. 3rd.  I never started my cycle when christmas came around so my ob put me on clomid at the beginning of January.  I took it religiously every day at 4:30 p.m. It is now 21 days after the last pill and still no period.  My symptoms while on clomid was the same as everyone elses and it was constant.  Hot flashes usa!  Id get woke up I was so uncomfortable.  However I did notice a higher rate of wanting intercourse.  It was a little different.  Does anyone know when my period will start?  I am scared to take a prego test because I cant deal with the fact of seeing negative after 13 years of praying.  Any advise would be greatly appreciated.  And Congrats to all that has conceived!

[dreamer7920]

Wow!  We are identical in symptoms.  That is terrible that you miscarry all the time.  It must be really hard on you and now you cant even get excited when it comes up positive. That would be really hard.  My sister is a high risk for miscarrying and its because her uterine lining is to thin and her pogesterone (sp) level is way low so she got put on some meds and strict rules until 12 weeks.  Maybe this is your problem also?  She would have never known until she went to a new dr and they did a blood test.  The other dr she had never did any of that and she had 2 miscarriages.  Now she is pregnant with her 3rd.  I refrain from getting my hopes up and dont even bother taking pregnancy tests because its always been a waste of money.  I never got any provera or anything.  It went from depo lupren to not starting and then clomid for 5 days.  I still am yet to start and its Feb. 4th!  I go back to the dr on the 16th.  I suppose shes gona do a pregnancy test if i havent started by then but she never did one when I got put on clomid so who knows.  My version is "it is what it is" .  I do not get my hopes up or even think about it anymore for the simple fact that I was just depressed all the time and arguing with the husband.  Its not worth it.  If its meant to happen then it will and I'll worry about details later but theres no point in getting ahead of myself.  Thanks udbe2 for your insight because I was really starting to feel alone and nobody else understands what its like to be a defect.  Thats what I call myself lol.  Its not a bad thing though because at least it gave me time to be a kid and have fun and get all the pi** and vinegar out of my system before and if I ever bring a child into this world.  My number 1 rule to myself is Marriage!  I refuse to bring a kid into this world out of wedlock and now im finally happily married and ready so its just a waiting game now.   When I least expect it, it will happen.  Kind of like love.  When your looking for it its never there and when you are content with life as you then your prince will appear.  I know mine did and I couldnt be happier.

[udbe2]

Reading your comment has brought so many memories to me.  I too was never on BC before in my life and found out in my mid 20's that I had severe endometriosis with adhesions and blockage in my tubes.  After all had been cleared the doctors gave me a shot of depo lupron to reduce the endometriosis after the first surgery to remove all adhesions and the endo came back.  It was supposed to last 3 months however I never came out of it and my body went into a chemical induced menopause and I had horrible hot flashes, wanted sex all of the time, moody but wasn't pregnant.  The doctors put me on BC for a few months to induce my cycle to come and finally it did show up and my body was back to normal. Since all of this I have been pregnant 5 times however the doctors haven't found out why I can't carry past 12 weeks without miscarrying.  All test come back normal and nothing is wrong with me or hubby.  

Melotonin will help with the hot flashes and ask your doctor about either provera or being put on BC for a month or two to help get your hormones back in order to bring on your cycle.  I would have thought they would have put you on provera to help get hormones in order after the depo lupron shot and after your first cycle they would put you on clomid.  

I wish you luck and if you ever need to talk about what is going on I've been through all that you have been through and will be glad to help out if possible.

[lisa1905]

Just think positive , it’s a best thing to do , I know waiting is hard , but u will get  a BFP really soon , I will pray for u
Baby dust to u
:)