Dear NomiNomi:
I hope that you understand that you didn't do anything that put your health in risk, and I know that visiting CSW could give you a sense of embarrassment and guilty (believe, I been there!)
If you feel very let down from this episode, please, don't be hard on you. Many men sometime think that experience sex (with penetration or without) with a CSW is fine, and many develop an addiction. I hope that this article give you a better perspective of this:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1190966/I-addicted-girls-A-respected-script-writer-explains-succumbed-lure-paying-sex.html
Take care men!
I was so relaxed, then after 3 yrs I agan went to a massage parlour.
The expert forum say no risk and no testing (sucking of nipples).
However, I am crying from last couple of hrs and regretting ...!
Thanks,
I think the life comes with mistakes and learning, though I will nt be doing it agan...but was v good lesson!
Stay blessed!
Hiya. In many cases peoples guilt is often their cause for HIV anxiety. Its a kind of self punishment for the cheating that they did on their partner. So as you have cheated your punishing yourself mentaly that you may have HIV and that fear then esculates and your concern is then for your partner.
The way to move on, well really understand and accept that you never even got close to having a risk of HIV, that is the key factor, you cannot have HIV from this, guilt does not give you HIV.
As for the guilt, well only time mate nothing more. We all make mistakes and somtimes we just have to live with them. You made one and the best way to move on is put it down to experince and dont beat yourself up about it.
Hope that helps a little