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Contact with blood and HIV worry!
Hi, I have had HIV anxiety for awhile now and have ben really good about staying off the internet until the episode that happened today. I am 22 and in college and am extremely healthy and fit, however, whenever I get an episode like this I feel helpless and unable to function. Heres the story and I am sorry if its long, I just want to provide all the details. Thanks!
So, to start things off, my friend last night was at a party where there was a stripper. The stripper took a smirnoff ice (alcoholic) and poured it all over her vagina and dripped the liquid off into his mouth. I thought it was absolutely disgusting but it didnt seem to bother him for some reason. Today we went to the PGA tour event in Ohio and during the ride down, i noticed his elbow was bleeding because a scab opened up. He nonchalantly wiped the blood away with his fingers and wiped it on his shirt I think. Either it was smeared on his shirt or his hands, of which I am not sure. About 5 minutes later we got to the event and after about 20-30 minutes later, he handed me a bracelet I needed to get into the free drink and food tent. I reluctantly took it, knowing his bloody hands have touched it, but I didnt see any noticeable blood. I put it on and we made our way to the drink tent. I reached into the cooler where it was filled with water and ice and grabbed a pop but then remembered my hands had touched the bracelet. I then threw away the unopened pop and went and washed my hands, then went back and grabbed a different pop out of the cooler. I didn't remember if he grabbed one or not but I then opened it and poured it into a glass and drank it. For some reason I feel like the blood may have gotten into the cooler and then onto the pop can and into my mouth where I have a canker sore. I know it's ridiculous, but this is the kind of thing I worry about when I get like this. I know ill be fine in the morning but if anyone could help relieve my mind of this that would be great. I swear I am not crazy, I just have the worst fear of blood that anyone could probably have. Thanks!
So, to start things off, my friend last night was at a party where there was a stripper. The stripper took a smirnoff ice (alcoholic) and poured it all over her vagina and dripped the liquid off into his mouth. I thought it was absolutely disgusting but it didnt seem to bother him for some reason. Today we went to the PGA tour event in Ohio and during the ride down, i noticed his elbow was bleeding because a scab opened up. He nonchalantly wiped the blood away with his fingers and wiped it on his shirt I think. Either it was smeared on his shirt or his hands, of which I am not sure. About 5 minutes later we got to the event and after about 20-30 minutes later, he handed me a bracelet I needed to get into the free drink and food tent. I reluctantly took it, knowing his bloody hands have touched it, but I didnt see any noticeable blood. I put it on and we made our way to the drink tent. I reached into the cooler where it was filled with water and ice and grabbed a pop but then remembered my hands had touched the bracelet. I then threw away the unopened pop and went and washed my hands, then went back and grabbed a different pop out of the cooler. I didn't remember if he grabbed one or not but I then opened it and poured it into a glass and drank it. For some reason I feel like the blood may have gotten into the cooler and then onto the pop can and into my mouth where I have a canker sore. I know it's ridiculous, but this is the kind of thing I worry about when I get like this. I know ill be fine in the morning but if anyone could help relieve my mind of this that would be great. I swear I am not crazy, I just have the worst fear of blood that anyone could probably have. Thanks!
I am not a mental health professional, but this concern sounds like an OCD concern. I have read your posting history and you seem to have an irrational fear of HIV, and at one point admitted to having OCD. You have been on MedHelp long enough to know what the real risks for HIV are, so continued explanations are not likely to help.
I also saw that at one point you were seeing a counselor. I suggest that you take these types of concerns up with him/her and work through them, rather than continue to post on HIV forums. You may also want to try the OCD forum.
I also saw that at one point you were seeing a counselor. I suggest that you take these types of concerns up with him/her and work through them, rather than continue to post on HIV forums. You may also want to try the OCD forum.
also, i took a shower just now and after i touched my phone and wallet and everything that i had touched when i was out and about today. i washed myself with soap all over and forgot to wash my hands before i took the shower. i now fear that blood from the things i touched was on my hands and got all over my body, most importantly my penis which i am now terrified about.
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