Slight Anxiety and Depression

[Trinifool]

Dear All : I had protected sex with a CSW and had a batch of Hiv Duo tests before I got to the 84 and 91st day mark. The 84th and 91st day HIV duo tests were negative, Thank God. I then continued to have severe anxiety over the fact that i could have caught HIV. I went to a therapist who placed me on anti depressants and so far I am recovering from this HIV Anxiety quite well. What would your advice be for a person like me who is longing for this anxiety to go away. The thing is I know that I am negative but still get these little doubts that come up in my head and then i go back to worrying again and feel guilty around my wife and kids. Really i just want to know what you all would advise me to do in order to get rid of this slight anxiety and depression once and for all ?

Thanks in advance for your valued advice

[Trinifool]

Joggen : you are a great moderator is my therapist is telling me the same thing you are saying. I will have to stay of the internet as it is really fueling my anxiety. I know that i have conclusive negative results and will stop testing as this is also giving some relief but then i think about doing it again and again which is now really turning me into an addict or weirdo. Thank you Joggen and keep on helping people like me to recover as this anxiety thing can be rather frustrating

[joggen]

I think you need to get out of this testing CYCLE that you are in. The tests may relieve your anxiety temporarily but they promote anxiety as well and it ends up becoming an addiction, You need to resist the urge to test and just let the anxiety work itself out on it's own. Remember when you have anxiety that it is only temporary and eventually it will wane. Being on the internet is probably fueling it also.

[Trinifool]

I freaked this morning and did 2 duo tests. The anxiety is coming on strong and i am freaking again

[Trinifool]

Thanks Joggen i am doing much better and have been able to control my anxiety and guilt due to my therapy. I must say that it was really hard to believe my results. Imagine i took 14 hiv duos after 27 days and all were negative including one at 84 days,90 days and took 2 hiv duo tests at 91 days and i still was not able to feel comfortable that i did not get hiv. The doctors told me that i was insane but when i went to see my theraoist she told me that she sees alot of married people that go tbrough this as the guilt mixed with the anxiety as well as the huge fear of getting hiv makes the individual think the worst and be very depressed. It was initially hard and i regret doing the crap i did but as my therapist says " we are all human and make mistakes, we need to move on and forgive ourselves". You guys are doing a great job belping people like me on this forum. Continue the great work Joggen and i am glad to be able to help others deal wih the anxiety as i know how rough it can  be

[joggen]

Continue to work with your therapist. Talk therapy with medication is the best approach.