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cannot stop worrying

Dear all,

Please first read this thread:  http://www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Please-tech-me/show/1651855#post_7521784.

I cannot give up an idea that the man could stick me with an infected needle. I THINK he did not. I have not seen any needle in his hands and also did no feel any pain (I guess it should have been painful if he really did so). I guess it is a product of my imgination because of constant fear of hiv and because I have a family, but I cannot get rid of these thoughts. What if I have been infected...

How to calm down?

many thanks
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:((( you see, I cannot stop worrying.
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/HIV-Prevention/Please-tech-me/show/1651855

The more I read internet about hiv facts, freaks, infections, the more mad i become.. The last thing I want to do  - is to infect my lovely g.f. I feel very guilty now :((
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Thats ok, by the point, i hope you didnt hurt yourself lol?

Im glad i could help.. :)
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I see your point. I will try to move on.
Thank you so much for your patience.
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Get a pin and stick it in your arm, that would be like a needle, if it hurts which it will you will see my point :)

And no i dont belive he did do this.
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you think I am crazy...
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:)

I would not. But who knows what is going on in HIS head.

So, you recon that I would have noticed the needle.  And that emotional condition I was (like being nervouse because we met at night while my g.f. was sleeping, orgasm, etc) could not screen the pain?

thanks for talking to me





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Why would he wont to do that, would you? Of course not.

If you had a needle in you, belive me you would know. They are sharp and penetrate your skin, they HURT.. and you would jump straight away.

Really forget buddy, it didnt happen so dont worry about want didnt happen or you will spend your life worrying Aliens will take you away and probe your bottom :) lol
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Apollo, it was not first but my second time, so you are right I have not much experience.

I agree that oral sex and using a condom is not a risk for hiv. What still bothers me is the potential infected needle in my body the guy could stick in..
:((
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What do think?

Time to leave the web cams, they are freaking you out buddy. Maybe this was you first time and your feeling guilty or somthing. Well whats done is done, you have come to no harm, you have not been at risk of HIV, so my advise is move on from this and start to enjoy life.

Belive me, their things to worry about and this isnt one of them, so go out and meet a guy and enjoy life. As long as you use condoms for sex you will not be at risk of HIV. Oral sex is not a risk of HIV but can be a risk for std's, so if your concerned about that, the again just use a condom.
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Thank you for your patience. I would like to share with you a new story because my worries do not leave me.

Today I entered the same web-chat but under a different nickname.  One person wanted to talk to me and sent me his photo. It appeared to be exactly the same photo as I received a week ago from a person with whom I had a contact in his car. I suspect it is the same person but also with a different nickname. (By the way, this photo and the man I met last time were quite different. He explained it by the fact that the photo was taken a few years before. )

The more I think about the person I met the more he looks weird to me. At the same time, if he really wanted to do anything bad to me, he might be crazy because to disclose himself. I do remember how he looks like, his car, and the license plates of his car. Even if it is not his car, but a company car or friend’s car it would be possible to find him..

What do you think?  
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You dont have HIV, so you cannot pass on what you dont have.
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and I can sex with my girlfriend w/o a condom?
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Happy New Year!
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You still had no risk, none at all ever in a million years, really enjoy the new year and move on with your life buddy
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Apolo1971, thank you for calming me down.

Maybe I should tell you the whole story why I was worried....

We met each other on a live chat. He is a man around 34yo from the same city as I am. I asked him whether he had hiv. He swears he does not. He also told me that he is married and have a kid and his name is J…f.  And that he works in a hotel in our city.

We agreed that we would do only masturbation, though he wanted to ******* me. Finally he agreed to only masturbate me. I suggest masturbating him, but he said that he would not be hard because he ejaculated earlier this day. I could not understand what a fun it was for him, but he said he likes “to see a big **** ejaculating”. OK, so we met in his car (he said it was a company car), on the rear bank. He masturbated me. He also took off his trousers and indeed he was “soft”. I ejaculated very fast. He kindly proposed to leave my condom in a car, but I dispose it myself. I asked him for a skype or msn contact, but he did not have any because of his wife (apparently she does not know he is bi).

After, I was thinking what a fun it was for him after all? He did not have erection.  What if he met me with a different purpose? That is the ORIGIN of my ANXIETY. I even went to the hotel to see him, but people there told me that they did not know any man with this name and the same about the car. It was strange again. But I can imagine the man wants to keep privacy because of his family and therefore teels lie. I have no idea.

I randomly asked other people on this live chat. One man told me that he had a sex with a person I described. He also confirmed the name of the hotel (apparently   J…f tells the same story to everyone).  The man also said that J…f looked normal and not dangerous and they had a good time.

Since we met, J…f was not seen on the chat for a week. He might be out for winter holidays.  Some other people on this chat confirmed that he was frequently online.

Ok, this is the whole story.
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Maybe my english wasnt clear. It didnt happen. Your concerns are all in your head or brain as you say.

Really buddy, these things dont happen, but if as it seems your unable to unstand this, then you should seek help for this from a professional who deals with people like yourself who have mental health issues
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I mean with the modern level of technology, I can imagine a needle as thin as a mosquito's needle. And a syringe could also be a tiny.
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Thank you.
Perhaps I could not make it clear (English is not my mother-tongue).
My problem is: I am thinking that the man could stick a needle in my body and I did not notice it because for example I was under effect of sexual emotion or whatsoever. People and Doctor here tell me that it is impossible. My brain understands it, but it is difficult to overcome the fear.

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Do you believe the government bug your house? If yes then you need to get help for the paranoid world you live in.
If you because it's  a stupid idea then good you then understand how bizarre you question is.

It didn't happen and to think so means you need better things in your life to worry about
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