To Everyone: An Apology

[dobber21]

Hi guys and gals,
I just want to apologise for my post last Friday http://www.medhelp.org/forums/HIVSupport/messages/1388.html

It's just I'm absolutely terrified myself; big painless lumps in my neck, intermittent rash, headaches, even though I know that symptoms mean nothing. I alternate between being worried about having infected the girl I slep with And I try to  help with people's problems here, but it rarely seems to work.

I was also angry at myself for spending too much time on here!

I just wish a lot of you guys who haven't had risks could just let it be and get on with your lives. There is nothing more soul destroying than worrying about HIV, especially when the risk is protected sex, insertive oral, kissing, toilet seats (on and on and on!) But then again, if reassurance helps, even for a small while, I'll try and post when I can.

Sorry for my petulance!:)

[ScaredUKGirl]

I'll let you off only because I love the Irish :-)

Glad you had a good weekend, I did too up until yesterday when as you already know I cried everytime I thought about Tuesday...

When does she get her result back? I will pray for both of us, all of us infact (even though I am not religous can I still pray??) that this will all very soon be behind us. x

[mike_no]

LOL! I thought it was only me to rely so much on god these days, i was never so religious however that does not mean i did not believe in him but these days, I look up to him in every prevailing aspects, i'm sure he'll pardon us. god's great

[mike_no]

yea,I'd agree to what you've said mebbe anxiety is the cause of these ulcers and needles any ways trying to get on with my life would be meeting my girl friend almost after a month today, gosh!  had a real tough month. Out of guilt avoided her, her phone calls, emails. The only fear dwelling in my mind now is how would i face my beautiful angel and ma family if I discover i'm infected after a few weeks any ways i'm just tryin to live for the moment  

[dobber21]

Don't live like that. You weren't infected. You made a mistake. Move on. That's the best thing you can do, not just for yourself, but definitely for your girlfriend. Don't let the guilt over a relatively small mistake ruin a good thing. You'd forgive her, right? That's all that matters.

[dobber21]

She's getting her results sometime this week. She says she hasn't been with anyone in three months, and I believe her. Thanks for your prayers.

I won't be praying for you, not because I don't care but because you don't need them, I guarantee you the result will be negative:)

[sooworried83]

Hope your words are right doober. Im **** scared myself and im going to test next week.