I have read everything I can find and still don't feel knowledgeable enough to make a decision. I'll see a physician before I do, but in the meanwhile, any advice would be appreciated.
I'm neg, he's pos, his viral load is undetectable and T-cell count is off the charts good. I have excellent dental hygiene and he has no sores. Can I fellate him without a condom and be at less risk than being hit by lightning or being killed in a car accident, or dying from lung cancer as a smoker? If he doesn't ejaculate? If I keep the pre-*** wiped off (and exposed to air for over 4 seconds?) and then frequently rinse out my mouth with hydrogen peroxide or alcohol just in case? I don't mean on a regular basis, just maybe once for our first time.
What would be the risk percentage for just a few minutes of unprotected vaginal intercourse without ejaculation? (only for our first time?) Since condoms tend to make me raw/irritated, I'm thinking my risk may be even higher if we use one and it breaks, or if there's overflow or something like that.
I have always practiced safe sex, I've been tested negative, and I'm not a risk-taker and I'm not looking to rationalize or encourage unprotected sex. But I believe in science and technology and I want to know the true risk possibilities. I wouldn't go outside in a lightning storm, but if the storm is a couple of miles away, most people wouldn't even think twice about it. Even if the risk was still much higher than catching HIV might be in this situation.
P.S. He's extremely knowledgeable about HIV transmission, just not with regard to women. Yet. The situation is complicated enough as it is - we're not afraid to discuss it openly with each other, but I'd rather have my ducks in a row before we get naked. My understanding is that prophylactics would not be prescribed to me in this situation.
THANKS!