ANGER AND RIBA

[Rockerforlife]

I cant believe what just happened,i was carrying a air cond on a shopping cart and just etering my building and a maintence cleaner said to me you cant enter the builiding with the shoopig cart and i right away lost it...i rasied my voice and used the F word and was just being really upset,..he metioned after i lost it it was a fire regulation code thing...i am disgusted wiyh myself now...i went back and apologizes to himw and explained i was streesed from my job loss but didnt mention i was on TX of course...what just happen scared me...i will admit im naturally a hot head sometimes...but this just happened so fast...it was like a aswtch went off in my brain...my question is

is there anything to take for this?...i mean like in pill form...maybe a mild valium...think ill call my doc today and ask some questions...i feel like a jerk now

[GoofyDad]

Steven King had a great character named Trash Can Man, but I digress.

PETA just came out against the trashcan trick because urban dogs have been suffering from bladder problems. Mandona's going to do a poster wearing a dual-trashcan bra.

[cindyh113]

Sounds like the whole world is using the Trash Can over the Hydrant idea! Bunch of jerks. Good to know some aren't. Now thats bright out look. Jim Morrison gooood music! I'm hooked on Glitter Rock after all these years of not. And the faster the better. Sweet videos on YouTube. Think the tx did that to me!

[Rockerforlife]

The trash can scam...new on me...whats next...fake fire hydrants?...we got fake cops..fake tow trucks tht steal  ATM bank machines...the pl;anet has gone mad....and getting worse.North Korea is actually asking the USA  for  a nuke war..they are egging on...lets go...i wonder who feeds Korea the arms?

[FlGuy]

The trash can over the fire hydrant is a gimmick that goes back many years and cuts two ways, usually in big cities.  On one hand, someone is driving around looking for a parking space but only finds a fire zone along a curb next to a fire hydrant. The parking wannabe pulls into the spot and pulls a trash can out of the back of the car and puts it over the hydrant, disguising the fire hydrant as a legal parking space.  On the other hand police have been know to cover a hydrant with a trash can.  When an unsuspecting driver thinks he's found a prize parking place, he pulls in.  A little later the trash can is removed revealing....a parking violation.  Then came painted curbs.  

[Rockerforlife]

LOOKS LIKE  the higher up  class are doing the stealing too me....they already have 6 figure salarys and perks,pensions....but they still steal...GREEDY  sick peolpe

[Rockerforlife]

This planet is a racket...like Jim Morrison said...before this sh.it house goes up in flames.im gonna have fun...i cant believe the newspapers again today...more politions in scandels   ripping off the taxpayers....sorry if i sound so negative....but this world is more depressing that the freaking TX

[cindyh113]

Whats the over the trash can thing? Ohhh! No. I parked in a lot owned by a large insurance company. We have a large music festival here every year and they have for years allowed us to park in their lots. I was in the main lot. They had put up a bar across a turn in the parking lot. It looks like they have deliberately tried to make new parking the only thing needed was white lines. I went by there yesterday and one of their employees had parked there. There were already 3 other cars parked there and we were not blocking anyone and you could get around easy. They should put up a sign if they do not want anyone to park there. The sign going in to the lot says, Free Parking.
I found out that my assumptions are correct. There is a fellow working for the insurance company who gets a kick back. We're pretty sure. At any rate the cops and the wrecker people had to have sat and watched us park, then came and hauled us off. Why did the cop not do their duty if we could not park there? In a down economy, why would you do that to someone? $140.00 to the other side of the road! And up to 230.00 if not paid by 1am. I told them they could keep it! I didn't have the money. Thats when the bargaining began. I literally did not have the money and I wasn't going to borrow it. My truck isn't worth $230.00. Ha, ha, ha! Theres something to be said for being poor! Give it all to the insurance company! Not that one thank God! Really!
I'm going over this evening and put up my own sign, tow zone. See if that puts a damper on their racket.

[FlGuy]

Or, the old trash can over a fire hydrant trick

[GoofyDad]

Could be someone prayed up a loading zone?

[Bill1028]

For years I thought it was something that I said or did.  This explains it, I now believe that my wife has been taking interferon behind my back.

[Ruthie703]

I believe it's OK to get angry.  I do, but I try to keep a lid on it.  I take benzo's. I try to
keep a lid on those also.  They are all addictive plus harmful to your liver mostly be-
cause they are oil soluble.  Water soluble drugs are less harmful because your liver can process them easier.  I take pieces of zanax to handle anxiety.  When I am anxious I find I get angry more often/ fight or flight kicks in.  I find I usually don't need
a whole pill and it keeps me from getting too addicted.  Withdrawal from benzo's can
be difficult to say the least.  A freind told me everything in moderation even moderation.  Hope that makes sense to someone. Hang in there.
SINCERELY RUTHIE

[FlGuy]

But, was your truck parked legally?

[Rockerforlife]

Scams are all over the newspapers here in canada...front page everyday some politition in a scandal...even one of our prime ministers got got with tax evasion....cops are scamming...even a judge up here was on the take....its bad....and this is just a tip of the iceberg....its hard not too get mad when im being ripped off by the people taht are spose to protect you...CORRUPTION IS EVERYWHERE

[cindyh113]

I believe you are right to think there is more to this life and someone who created it. I believe the Bible. As a christian you come to realized how helpless you are to always do the right thing. Which is the whole purpose of Jesus Christ. And this makes this whole life worth living for me even when I don't feel good.
I have grown up with a lot of anger. And have surpressed more than I should have. Jesus did toss a few tables. I just love that! The book says, "Be angry but do not sin". Well, thats hard. I am just 2mo. + out of tx and I had decided I would not just walk away from things just because I did not want a confrontation. Well, last night I got my opportunity. My truck was towed at an event. It was unjust. I was not blocking anyone, or causing property damage. They towed it across the street and wanted $140.00 cash and it would go up at 1am to $230.00 if I didn't pay for it. There were police there with the towing companies to keep the peace. Well, I knew right off the bat that I may go to jail! I was Peed Off and I wasn't holding back. They had a racket going on and I knew it and they did too! Besides I had no money and wouldn't have given it to them if I did. And it made me so angry thinking about the other people they had done this to that I started crying. Not in front of them! The officer ask my friends to take me off so I would calm down. I told them it was obvious this was a racket, ask the police how many they had done this to, my friend wanted to know if they would sleep good, and I called them thugs. To let them know I had no money I showed them a baggy with change, ask if they would take a bad check or an over the limit credit card. Lets just say I wasn't nice. The end result was they quietly let me leave. I turned to my friends and ask who prayed because I sure didn't! One spoke up and said she did. I would have gone to jail on principal and I'm not done with them yet. I used a few colorful words, not very christian like, but when you can't find the right words, use what you've got. I don't feel bad today, except for those who weren't so fortunate.
So, hang on to that new found energy and go defend the world! And appologize when your wrong.

[IMstacie]

I'm taking lexapro to help the anger and I still get a little agitated on the weekends after my shot on Friday night.  I'm one of these people that dislike uncomfortable situations.  But, sometimes I think I have always held back a little too much and it doesn't hurt to say what I mean - on occasion.

The flowers were good advice, and it will help you feel better as well.

[franke566]

I've fantasized about it only to remind myself there is always that final option...if it gets too bad.  But what is too bad?  No one knows until they reach that final straw.  I believe there is something but I don't know what.  Intelligent design, or God?  Can something come from nothing?  I read  the works of Charles Bukowski and St. Augustine and both of those guys were on two different ends of the life spectrum but somehow they both make the same argument:  It didn't just happen it was caused, and there has to be some reason behind that.

[Rockerforlife]

I never really thought about suicide...but my thoughts on death are this:

death is the easy part...the hard part is the actual dying proceess and knowing how long you have left and dying in pain and suffering...the problem is getting to the other side without any hassles...we all end up on the other side no matter what we do ...i dod have faith tho that there is something waiting for us all afetr we go into the next dimension..

too deep?

[Rockerforlife]

And to make matters worse,stress ia at high levels all over the globe right now...people who are let go from their jobs and one ones worried about losing the jobs that have..it was so bad at my last job the 2 supers were seeing shrinks

[Trinity4]

Anger and depression come and go.  It's not constant with me.  I can still talk myself down and I've hitting this tx pretty hard and long.  

It's not unusual to snap.  Human nature.  I've been known to lay a good cussing on somebody when I wasn't on tx.  We all struggle with emotions throughout our lives.  When I start feeling sad and morose, I bump up my checks and balances system.  That's how I cope.  I've don't take any chill pills or AD's and it's difficult sometimes, but manageable in my case.

Also, when you are the caregiver of someone with dementia as I am, the patience level
becomes finely tuned.  Many things that used to matter or annoy, no longer have that affect.

[merryBe]

yup I believe it....and if you read up on the rates of suicidal ideation they are staggering.

it was a constant companion those thoughts until I got on the right med...and those are thought I hadn't entertained since adolesence, so this tx really does a number on folks mentally.

Frankly I think it's sinful that they don't premedicate people considering this tx is an equal opportunity Mash ans slasher of normal brain funtion. For that matter, why do we have to be gasping for air like fish on the river bank before they give us procrit.
(my new fantasy is every insurance gatekeeper and every doc prescribing chemo should have to go through it...grin... that would sure change the way things are done fast.)
mb

[Rockerforlife]

You wanna hear something...my study nurse told me some stories of patients she treated in the past and the voilence of some patients...it was so bad the police had to come for this one guy...he threaten to hurt them...these drugs are dangerous...in the end she cured him and he poured out his heart later....im keeping on my toes from now on....getting mad looks bad

[merryBe]

so in other words you were truckin" with your cool and then somebody said you can bring that cool in here and so you blew your cool??

totally undestandable...and as the doctor will say "take a CHILL pill" pardon the pun.

I would not have made it through treatment without Ativan,(lorezepam) it's the safest for the liver and I had such jitters without it even answering the front door was not an option.
And you are right, it feels like you snap...but it's just that your brain and body are having their peaceful chemicals destroyed by the tx.. I took point zero five  ( .05) with each dose of Riba and it smoothed out for the most part, but had to add 15 mg. of Remeron at night to get a total grip.

the ativan is hard to get off of after tx, as I'm finding out now, but it can be done, and for many during tx NOT taking these meds is NOT an option.
One lady in here a while back threatened someone with homocide in the ER, and is now dealing with the reprocussion of that SNAP...so this can be a very serious matter.

feel better soon I hope.
mb

[Rockerforlife]

I wish i knew all this before i started TX...i guess i did know,but i just thiught it would not happen to me...I HIGHLY SUGGEST to tell your employer you will be on meds and maybe inform them you will be on meds that may cause emotional reactions..if i was up front about my TX from the beginning i could have gone on sick leave and short or long term disabilty..i was totally insured...but i just worked everyday because i could....i was afraid to tell them i was on meds because it looked bad at the time,,,if i was up front they cant fire you then...which is what they did...i didnt inform HR i was seeing a doc and on meds....i now think they weasled me out by harrassing me and stuff...my super knew i was seeing a doc evrery 4 weeks....i asked if he wanted a note and he said it was ok...no need...now im thinkn they knoew if i had a note they would have a hard time dumping me....I WAS WRONGFULLY DISMISSED

[R Glass]

When I was on tx, my project manager called and said he was sending a couple of laborers to my jobsite to clean. He was trying to do me a favor but I took as he was insinuating my jobsite was a mess. I jumped down his throat. After I calmed down, I called and apologized.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSnBApQH9WE