Your drug regimen sounded very difficult -- the most I've done is two meds at a time and that was hard enough.
Being ill and worried about it all does nasty things to one's outlook, doesn't it ... but there will be better days ahead. When I have a good day, I try to fix a memory of it, and how I felt, where I was and what I was doing when Life Was Once Again Fine, and cling to that memory like Linus to his blanket.
Hang tough; your body may be a little bit huffy right now given what you just put it through with the many meds.
I had tinnitus for over a year continuously. It finally went away.
I started treatment, slowly, about a year a go. I Herxed fairly continuously and fairly badly all through April, May, June, and July '09. Every day was miserable, I doubted many days that treatment was working and instead suspected that I was just toxic from too much medication.
Then one day in late August, a big, heavy curtain was pulled back and I found myself able to do so much more than before. It's still precarious, and I still have bad days, flares, Herx's, but once in awhile for a few hours at a time I can almost forget that I'm sick.
And while losing ability is horrifying, as is stacking up more and more symptoms, recovering ability is glorious! Even though I'm not "100%" it is so relieving to know that much of the damage and effects are reversible.
I really underestimated how long and difficult treatment would be. Maybe it was to my advantage that I started abx expecting to be cured in a month or so. Had I known how awful I would feel before improving, I may have shied away from the whole mess. While I had read about Herxes and long-term treatment, I figured that wouldn't happen to me as I'm just too tough. Ha! Lyme undermines our resilience, and I think that makes us feel not like ourselves and at times, just worn out and hopeless. Do your best to weather the storm, and the sun will come out tomorrow!