I foolishly decided to engage in jelqing thinking that if I did it 5 days a week with two rest days, while in the shower with warm water and lotion I would avoid injury. I am extremely regretful of this decision as it has caused me some serious problems.
After jelqing for one week, I noticed a definite girth increase - which had me excited it was working and thus I continued for another week. Now I know better, and that "girth increase" was likely swelling from the jelqing and not actual 'progress'.
I began to notice that once this swelling subsided, my penis looked a little smaller and was stiffer in a flaccid condition. It wasn't until a few days ago when I went to have sex with my girlfriend when I noticed there was a real problem. I couldn't get it fully erect no matter how hard I tried. Eventually after applying a silicone based lubricant and her stroking me I was able to get it just barely hard enough to enter her. Once inside it got slightly harder, but still only about 70% of normal. Then another problem quickly became apparent - I ejaculated within 20 seconds.
I immediately realized that this nightmare was because of the jelqing and promised myself I will never, EVER partake in this practice again. Now, 4 days after we had sex I have seen no improvement in my condition. I haven't gotten morning wood, and can not get fully erect when thinking about things that would have made be erect before, and my penis will immediately lose it's semi-erection as soon as stimulation is stopped.
I have no sexual desire at the moment (likely because I'm ashamed of myself down there now & stress), and do not even want to have sex anymore when previously I would want it daily and get erections daily just thinking about it.
I have no idea where to go with this. It's only been about 6 days since I have stopped jelqing. How long will it take to fully recover, or is that even possible? I am extremely fearful this could be permanent in which case my sex life and romantic life are over - which I know will pull me into severe depression. Please help!