Does anyone have any similar feelings?

[Devastated_Mommy]

After I had miscarried a few weeks ago, I have been feeling nothing but horrible. I am devastated and I don't feel like myself. I just don't know if these thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are normal. I really want a child and this is my second pregnancy...... my heart breaks even more when I see a  woman who looks like she's about pop or a picture on Facebook of a friend holding her newborn...... I than immediately turn the other way or start crying.....what makes matters worst, I live with my friend who has a two year old. This little guy can warm your heart! :) He is so full of personality and having him around would make my day. That was before, but unfourtantely now I can't stand being around him. Its not that I hate him because I absoultely don't. My  behavior seems like I'm trying to push these people away. Like im trying isolate myself, but it doesnt seem like its working....Its even wosrt when this little kid seems whinnier than usual, but its what the avaerage two year old does. Then it annoys me, i get aggravated, and i leave the house or go into another room to tune them out. I tell myself I don't want kids and I can't have kids because I don't seem like I can handle it. Then i feel even more horrible. My roommate doesn't seem to understand. I want my husband and he's hurting as much as i am because he wants a child too. But its okay. I'll get to see him soon enough though. :) I'm the kind of person who will bottle up emotions like this and will do anything to ignore them. I'm tired of that! It doesn't benefit a person at all.... I'm having troubles couping with this....
so if anybody can relate or have something they would like say about there thoughts or feelings about there experience, go ahead and do so here.

[ross1112]

Oh yeah I know that feeling, I miscarried two months ago and I still feel horrible, I don't have any kids and this is my third pregnancy and I lost him at 17 weeks so is hard for me, I can't see anybody pregnant and I'm hurting every time I see a newborn on Facebook, I still cry every day

[AnnieBrooke]

After my last miscarriage and thought I couldn't do IVF again, (in other words, when I thought I had hit the end of the road), I talked to the counselor at my ob-gyn's office who counsels people dealing with loss and infertility issues.  You're probably still grieving the miscarriage, and grief doesn't exactly make you normal.  See if you can find a counselor who specializes in these subjects, it helped me a whole lot.  (For what it's worth, I cried through my whole first appointment.)  Anyway, good luck, counseling REALLY helps.