fighting a losing battle

[gin12345678]

its getting worse and worse and today i feel like im fighting a losing battle with OCD. it all started about 2 years ago when i read an article about sexsomnia and a woman who had sex with strangers in her sleep without even knowing it! it scared me crazily that it could happen to me as i do occasionally (like once a yr) take recreational drugs and also drink abt once a week n it states that people who do so are more predisposed to it. i have woken up from a vivid sex dream in a house my husband and i were renting and been crazily afraid that i have done it with a stranger in my sleep. to make things worse, i also have a severe phobia of hiv and have been worried abt getting it from everything from scratches to rubbing my eyes to get this - someone contaminating my shampoo! i have gone for countless hiv tests all negative but somehow keep thinking abt this.  my greatest fear is catching it whilst sleepwalking and passing it to my husband. yes i know its crazy but i am going mad. it doesnt help that there is a creepy man in my apartment building who always stares at me and its worsening my fears that i have done something in my sleep im unaware of . i have been to a therapist to talk about my fears and it helped for a while but now its back.although my husband tells me i dont sleepwalk, somehow at the back of my mind there are so many what ifs like what if this isnt  OCD as its a possibility. i just dont know what to do anymore. im so sick n tired of living my life in fear. i have tried to calm myself down with prayer but now i find myself even questioning God, which is terrible and i dont know what to do anymore. r there anybody else like me?

[gin12345678]

Yes i was half awake n cldnt mve ive had this before n ive read n hearrd tt its very common .tryin to rationalise nw, am in tears cos my husband is angry at me for bringin this sleepwalking thing up again n again :(

[JGF25]

What do you mean by sleep paralysis?  You woke up and you couldn't move at all?

[gin12345678]

sigh this morn i woke up frm a bad dream with sleep paralysis. am really freakin out nw.does sleep paralysis cause sleepwalkin????" im so scared now

[gin12345678]

Thanks guys u have really been helpful. Sigh, I was better for e past couple of days but today itsback again. :( LAst night i rem goin to sleep feelin annoyed at my neighbour for slamming his door late at night then this morning my husband left fr work early at 8am . I slept  till abt 10 during which i had a bunch of dreams i cant rem so clearly but one was a sex dream that involved me gointo e shower afterwards . I checked but my e chair i left to blockmy room door was still there. Do u think i cld have sleptwalked because of goin o bed feelin angry? This is like a continuous nightmare:(

[JGF25]

To answer your first question, there are a whole host of anti-depressants out there that work for OCD but if you have had past issues with drugs then probably best to stay away from them and get a handle on the OCD using cognitive behavioral therapy which your therapist can teach you.  Plenty of people use only this method with success.

As for creepy guy...he probably is just that, creepy.  Plenty of guys and girls out there that give people the willies.  Just part of life.  He just may think you are pretty and wants a look...looking isn't breaking the law so we all have to put up with that..both guys and girls.  

I would have probably told my husband "see honey I still have it so you better be damn happy you got me."  LOL

[gin12345678]

as for the creepy guy, i never even noticed it till my husband pointed it out when he was really creepily staring at me, then i started noticing that I always see him at the bus stop in e morning and even take the same bus as him! once on my way back from work he was walking in front of me and then jst stopped in e middle of the path to fiddle with his phone and he looked up when I walked past. You can imagine how that has heightened my OCD. but I guess I cant be imagining things abt every creepy stary guy cos there are tonnes of those around right???? r my fears unfounded?