OCD is a nightmare but with alot of hard work and self belief it can improve but it's not easy.The biggest tadgety is that some family member or doctors don't seem to understand the situation.Unless they have walked a day in our shoes they don't know what it's like.I thought OCD was going to be the end of me but with the right meds and CBT I have battled the black dog in my head.
the thing that scares me the most is the what ifs like what if hes staring at me cos i did something with him or someone else? what if consuming alcohol has caused it or something else im not aware of? ive read abt sleepwalkers who have no idea or recollection of what they have done at night. although i am a very light sleeper and always wake up in my own bed with everything in place, i just feel so paranoid. it frightens me because there's so much abt parasomnias that's unknown . i just dont know what's true and what's not anymore.
You are going to be alright. You did not have sex with anyone
i usually glare at him and he looks away i dont wanna get into a fight cos ive previously been quarrelsome with neighbours before and dont want to repeat that. sigh
before it used to be my fear of gettin hiv from cuts and environmental surfaces and then when i found out that its not possible i started being afraid of catching it from actual sex withs trangers during sleep! i jst dont know what to do anymore. i pray fervently before sleeping everynight but every morning when i see the creepy guy at the bus stop i start thinking n thinking again. its killing me .
xx