Ok, so I know you're all wondering how it went at the pain dr. today. It went a lot better than I ever thought it would. I got in and brought all my meds with me (as some of you told me, mama Sherry, Jamie, Sara) and the first thing when I walked in the door the nurse came up front and said our dr. has you fill out a prescription list everytime you come in. So of course I thought something was wrong, but I said in an even voice, oh great because I brought every single medicine that I take and I did. I wrote everything down, what my pain level was ( I have never had to do these things before, ever, so I was thinking about that little sheet of paper flying around somewhere) and I finished the paperwork, paid my copay and waited a long time. Very unusual for him to keep me waiting, I was in there worrying, I weighed myself twice, 115, then 114 and thought, oh crap, he always weighs me, I'm out of luck on this. He finally came in, and said, hey dilated eyes, want some more tramadol? And we just started cracking up. From there I asked him if he could still treat me? He said, of course why not? I said well my mri on my back isn't good, and he said Karen, you are not a candidate for surgery, no one will touch you because of your age and what's wrong with your back because it may not help. I asked him if I may become permanently disabled and he said probably. I told him about the new Psychiatrist, and he said he was very glad of that because of when I got physically attacked in my house last September that I needed it since then but maybe now is the time I can handle it. So, I told him, you told me you have more options for me, he said yes, we can't do, lyrica or gabepentin, or neurontin, because of your thyroid, we can't do celebrex because your allergic and I don't feel comfortable with giving you NSAID because of your hernia and the lining of your stomach. He said there are narcotics, I said yeah Vicodin, and he said no I'm talking about heavy duty narcotics,like fentanyl patch, oxycontin, oxycodone, and I told him I haven't taken those and don't feel comfortable with taking anything but Vicodin. He said I agree with that. He then told me he has one other option, a spinal stimulator, he spent about thirty minutes explaining this stimulator that would run up from my back up to my neck and have a battery in my butt and it would send signals to stop the pain going down my back and my arm. I said heck yeah, that sounds good. He then told me I have to be cleared from the psychiatrist and that may be a few months but it's an option. He then gave me a cd disc to watch of the spinal stimulator and then talked to me about my weight, he said it's the lexapro and to not lose any more weight because I was starting to look skinny. I told him I would try. He then wrote me a prescription of Vicodin 7.5. 3.5 1-2 every four to six hours so I can take six a day (180) and with 1 refill We had an amazing talk and I just had to update EVERYONE. Jamie, my heart goes out to you, I wish you could come to Kansas and I could get you into my dr. he doesn't do drug tests or contracts, I brought my vicodin from the psychiatrist and told him why he wrote it and he had absolutely no issue. But I was wanting to rush home and tell you guys all of this because I've been so worried about nothing, but I was totally scared when they had me fill out that paperwork, I thought he read the note, but I really don't think anyone else has it. I went to CVS pharmacy, took it to the counter and they said 10.00 please. They didn't give me a hard time, but I did see the pharmacist on the phone after I left but I don't give a crap, it's alll legitimate. But I was sitting thinking of you Jamie, and how much problems you're having. I wish I knew where you lived, it would almost be worth getting you here to see him for some pain control if only for one time until you get a real pain management doctor.
Thank you everyone in believing in me, sorry so long, but I hope some people respond....