IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE BACKGROUND OF HOW THIS HAPPENED, PLEASE LOOK IN MY JOURNAL!
I was chemically burned with 2nd and 3rd degree burns on the top of my scalp on September 9, 2006, which ultimately resulted in one big burn spot and later scab on the crown of my head. The size was bigger than a Silver Dollar, as you will see in the picture, taken 10 days after it all. I had a skin graft surgery done by a plastic surgeon, which gave me no guarantee that I wouldn't ever feel pain again.
As you may know, opiate tolerance is something most people have when using them on a long term basis. My Primary Care Physician (PCP) treated the pain to the point he was comfortable with which was... 1600 mg Neurontin, 60 mg Norco a day, and 80 mg. of Elavil... all to help with the nerve pain. After 8 months of increasing my doses little by little, he recommended a Pain Management Doctor.(PMP)
I really like my PMP, and he is very nice, however his staff totally ***** and they are rued, but I tolerate it, because we have built trust over a long period of time now. In hindsight, I wish I knew what I know now, which is that it's hard to get used to those hard core medications, and if anyone would have told me what to expect, I would have just gotten used to it. I thought that there was some magical bean pill out there for me somewhere which would give me no side effects...but they don't exist!
So, I got depressed. I started seeing a Psychologist, Psychiatrist and seeking every non medication method to help with the pain. Nothing did, and if you have chronic pain you know this, chronic pain changes your life in ways you never could have imagined.
I ended up in a mental hospital to treat my depression, and because I am an HONEST patient, I ALWAYS tell any doctor or hospital that I have a PMP, not only because "I promised" new patient packet, but also so they won't give me anything that could harm me. They in return, called the pain management clinic telling them I was suicidal, and so the head doctor of the practice (who I have never met in the 14 months I've been going there) decided to write on my chart, NO OPIATES.
So.. I'm on everything else non opiate, except my PCP put me on 8.5/2mg tabs of Suboxone 3 times a day to help with the pain. Not even my pharmacist knew this medication was used for anything but OPIATE ADDICTION, and so I called the office and he reassured me that he put me on the highest dose of Suboxone, and it would give me relief and he knows I'm not an addict.
I've had a really ROUGH time, and he wants to put me back on the opiates again with Psychiatrist's approval, because I've lost 18 pounds since I've been on it (I'm 5'9" and used to weigh 130 lbs and now weigh 112 lbs.) It's just been horrible.
My question is to everyone... how can I get across to him that I need more help than what he usually does? I try to express it very clearly, but what should I do? Should I call everyday complaining, write letters, or what? I usually just stick it out, because in the past when I have called when I was in really bad pain, they said all they could do for me is to tell me to go to the ER.
QUESTIONS:
1. What to do and not to do with PMP?
2. I try to leave him alone because he is busy, but I should I? Or does being a complainer help?
3. Should I ever suggest a medication that I have read up on?
Please think of other ideas or share knowledge of past experience with difficult doctors!
Please read my journal if you would like details of the injury I am talking about.
****The photo was taken 10 days after the burn.