i dont know

[ShellyLette]

I don't really know what I'm doing here, or why for that matter. I'm starting to be convinced its the extra hormones. Do you ladies think you ever forget your first love? I think about mine constantly lately. And we haven't talked in like 4 years. I even reached out and sent him an email, hoping for a response. And yet why? I have a beautiful daughter with an amazing father whom I love and treats me like a queen. And my ex is an ex for a damn good reason. I just don't understand my motives lately. Sorry for the waste of post. Just needed to let that out

[ShellyLette]

You didn't sound rude hun (: I appreciate the look out

[JuliaAnn02]

Oh alright, by the way..I didnt mean to sound rude by saying that. Just trying to look out for you!

[ShellyLette]

I just don't understand the sudden urge. It's like an addiction. Thanks for the responses ladies it makes me feel not so weird. Lol. I don't think my boyfriend would mind, he doesn't even know who he is to begin with. My ex lives in another state far away now, part of the reason for our break up. I don't want to be with my ex again or anything idk I just kinda miss the friendship

[JuliaAnn02]

Girl, you better be careful! You don't wanna stir anything up with your husband that actually does treat you righttt

[RoopStetter]

You don't ever forget your first love. I still talk to mine. And (I know its really weird) he still calls me every year on what would have been our anniversary. He has been with his gf for 3 years and I have been married for 3 years but you just don't forget. We have even talked about where we would be if we hadn't broken up. I love my husband very Much sometimes when things were left open you can't help but wonder

[GordonBaby]

Eeeek..been there!! Don't reach out. God forbid your man found out. Its normal to think about it though. Avoid the appearance of evil.... your man would be devastated.

[ShellyLette]

It's the weirdest feeling! And then I think to myself what if he actually does respond its not like any of the past has changed you know? Ugh so frustrating

[Kate037]

I ran into my first loves sister on Monday at the fair, and it brought so many memories back. Yes your ex is an ex for a reason, but they will always hold a special place in your heart because you shared so many 'firsts' with them. The baby I lost was with my first love, so when his sister saw that I was pregnant I just knew it was going to get to back to him. Sure enough he sent me a nice little message congratulating me, but I'm not going to message him back. The past is the past. At least that's the way I see it. It's normal to think back and to wonder what could have been, to run through a million different scenerios, what if this happened, what if that happened. But just keep reminding yourself you have a family now, you don't need his acknowledgement or his approval. It would be wonderful if he messaged you back and you two could find a way to be friends again, but don't be too upset if that doesn't happen. They say time heals everything, so maybe that will be true for you as well.

[shawnastone]

Sorry I can't help. But I understand. I been dreaming a lot if my first love & I don't know why. I feel like I need to  contact him and see how hes doing :/