Just when I used the thought that in just a mear 15 weeks I'll be having a baby, I now have a mear 15 weeks to get used to the thought of doing this alone! My boyfriend decided to end or relationship due to him being stressed!? Please bear in mind that he has been unemployed since Feb, whilst I still worked a 40 hour week doing night shifts and being pregnant and paying all the bills. I will admit I have been hot headed due to worrying about money, and now he wants to stay in my house whilst were not together until he gets himself sorted! I dont think so!! Ive told him that if he doesnt want to at least try on the relationship then he can leave (he has nowhere else to go but that isnt my problem anymore right?)
He says he will be there to support me and the baby, but Im thinking ahead like when he plays football 2-3 nights a week, and when he starts seeing somebody else he wont be around but he said Im being stupid thinking that.
Its still all pretty raw, I cant concentrate on my work and Im trying to just get on with it, usually what I would do is drink as much wine as possible until I fall asleep but I cant do that, Im fed up of crying and being upset all the time but I cant see the light at the end of tunnel just yet! Just doesnt make sense because we planned for this baby!
I dont feel I have the strength to be alone, and with him not there cuts alot of my options, like going back to work, or if I started seeing somebody else! I mean who is going to be interested in a single mum! Not that I want to see anybody else, if Im doing it alone then its just me and my daughter, no uncle joes or anything :( Break ups are hard but being pregnant too, I just dont feel like I can cope