Final Update

[laura1985]

Just wanted to update everyone one last time. I went to my appt today and the baby only measured  5w2d on the sono, and there was still not a ys or fetal pole as well as no hb. My levels have continued to double just as they should however. Anyway, I have a D&C set up for Fri the 13th (ugh, can it get any better than that date?!) at 2pm.

Dh and I talked with the doctor and we all three agreed that since this is my 5th miscarriage (or soon to be miscarriage), that this is it. My doctor doesn't tie tubes, however, he does do a procedure where he inserts these metal things in your tubes for permanent birth control. I have the info on it in my purse but I am to lazy to get it out right now. We all decided that it is the best option. As soon as I am healed from my D&C, i will be going in to get it done. We have it set up for March.

As I said before, Dh and I prayed for a very long time about this, and we felt like if this one didnt last, that it is just not meant to be for us. Adoption and surrogacy is not something that we are interested in. So I guess my journey for a baby ends here.

Please know that I am TOTALLY okay with this. I am sad that I'll never be a mom, but I feel like God just has a different path for me. Dh and I love one another so much, and for me, that is enough.

I wish everyone well, SSBD to everyone.

[AnitaRFrith]

Awww... I'm so sorry hun.  I know how painful loosing a baby is... I have lost 3.  I wish you would not give up.  I would get a new Dr.  I have known lots of ladies that have gone through futility treatments and they were told that if you are getting pregnant then it is possible.  They should be able to do some thing.  I'm going to be praying for you.  God Bless, Anita

[kylesMom09]

I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through this...It is good to hear though that you and your DH have come to peace with your decision.   Hopefully everything goes well tomorrow and in the future for you!!!  Just never forget that God knows what he is doing and won't ever give you more than you can handle...Best of luck!!

[laura1985]

i have been tested. i have a blood clotting disorder, systemic lupus, and low progestrone. dh hasnt been tested though.

i really thought that this was the time because i had no spotting and really no cramping. i still havent spotted, its just the baby isnt developing like it should. my levels are fantastic, but the babys measurments on the sono were not good. there was still no yolk sac present yesterday. they said i measured 5w2d, and no fetal pole seen. im guessing it was maybe a blighted ovum?

[JoyRenee]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. You have a lot of love to give and maybe there will still be a baby in your future through adoption once your heart has healed a bit.

I know you said you're fine with your decision but I want to encourage you- multiple miscarriages doesn't mean you'll never have your own baby. I know a woman who had over a dozen miscarriages before conceiving her twin sons, who are healthy preschoolers now. You're still really young. Have you been tested for fertility problems?

[tarrah87]

good luck laura in your decision but as some others have mentioned you are still so young, i would wait a bit to have the permanant bc put in since it's not reversible i also know someone who had 4 m/c's and 2 mid trimester losses around 12-16 wks and after waiting a while and letting herself heal and etc 3 years later had a baby boy now she has 3 children, i'm so sorry for you loss, but it may not be too late. i know how hard this is for you but i've lost 3 babies so far myself but don't give up complete hope yet. you're in my thoughts and prayers.

[kikicoates78]

A very close freind of mine had 5 M/C in 2 yrs, she also felt as if she should not try anymore, she did try again, and now has 5 beautiful children. I hope you all the best, and I pray god give you the strength to make it through tomorrow. ((HUGS)) and best wishes.

[laura1985]

thanks to all for the prayers you have coming my way.

im a little nervous about tomorrow, but i know i will be okay.

dh and i are very sure about getting the procedure done to get my tubes closed. i know that i absolutly can not go through this again. i mean, when i think about getting it done is does make me a little sad because i cant go back and change my mind once it is done. but it is also a huge relief knowing that i will not be going through this again.
ttc has just been one huge letdown. i dont take care of myself like i used to. i think it is time for me to focus on ME and dh. things might be a little gloomy for a little while, but it WILL get better. i am just trying to stay strong through this rough patch for dh and i both.

[PENNY1705]

i am so sorry that you are going through this but my opinion is that you are still young and there is still hope for you. please re consider your decision. i will pray for you

[PJ466]

Know that God is by your side.

[depressed748]

I am so sorry I dont know even know what to say at the moment....I just prayed for you!!!! God does have a plan for you and it will come to light one day...you are very strong...take care

[GRose]

I am so sorry, I just want to share a story of a women I worked with. She and her husband were trying for a baby for 7 years and she had many miscarriages in that time, one that included loosing the baby at 4 months. It was a very painful time in her life but they kept trying and she was blessed with a healthy baby girl, after seven years of trying. I know you feel like you cant go through another loss but please just make sure that this is what you want, maybe God wants you to wait a few more years.
No matter what you end up doing I wish you lots of luck and happiness.
Hugs,
Gina

[blueeyedtabbycat]

I am so sorry you have had to go through this again:( You are a very strong woman I will be praying for you:)
Hugs
*Tabitha*

[Latrice414]

I am so sorry for your loss and there is really no words to comfort one who has had a loss. My heart goes out to you and DH, God has a plan for everyone. I will be keeping you and DH in my prayers.


Hugzzz,
Latrice

[LauraB78]

I am at a loss as to what to say, but if you and DH are comfortable with your decision, then I am happy for you. I think I would wait a bit before undergoing any permanent birth control though, you are young and maybe you guys should consider just putting ttc on the back burner for quite a while, but I don't know if I would have an irreversible surgery (if it is?)just yet... Anyway, I am thinking about you and PM me anytime, I am not on  much anymore but I check my email almost daily!

Take care sweetie~

[freya25]

I have to just say this-My best friend had 7 MC she now has 2 beautiful healthy children, 1 boy & a girl.
Im sorry you have had to go through this-it is so unfair, however if you are both happy with the decision-God will have your best interests at heart & what will be will be.
I will be thinking of you both on friday & hope it goes aswell as it can go.
Take care of yourself hun-your positive attitude is an inspiration.
You are both very lucky to have each other!
xXx

[mamaof6]

Laura, I am so sorry :(   I will be praying for you and God does have a plan for you and your husband. You will def. be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care hun!

[worriedbabe]

I'm so sorry. I wanted to encourage you to keep trying, but you seem so sure and at peace with your decision that i won't.

[sweetangel7]

I agree with ashie...I'm sorry that you have gone on this long ttc journey only to have it end like this.  I'm glad that you and dh are at peace with everything.

[ashiepooh]

Well, I'm sorry your having to go through this, but I am glad you guys have everything figured out!  As long as you guys are happy with your decision, that's all that matters!!!  =)