Im scared and now on my own!

[Cassandrajane]

Hey guys! Sorry ive been away for a while :(...

Basically John has a new gf now... GR! but oh well happened before and he always comes back, everyone thinks its cause he is scared...

Anywayys now I am even more scared than before. Because now im on my own and I dont know what to do...
what if I really aint good enough?? I cant do this on my own!!

I have been sent to an Anorexia clinic too and it just gets worse.. :(

Helps me with helps! LOL

xx

[Cassandrajane]

Oh and tomorrow is the date of my Abortion last year and I am a mess!!! She would have been due to be born on Johns birthday :(

xx

[ftmAmanda]

i missed you.  and john is a loser. why would he be with someone else. weren't you guys still together

[avaortega407]

what a jerk!! cheer up every thing will be okay weather he comes back or not do you have support of your family ?

[alaysha]

Honestly girly you dont need him.

[ftmAmanda]

did you leave again

[Cassandrajane]

No he left me!... But I didnt cry!!??!! LOL...
But its just like why when we have a baby..?? and literally 3 weeks ago he was happy as larry, Saying when we get married and all that Jazz... now this??
But apprently she is the type that sleeps around and everything....
xx

[alaysha]

I think your boyfriend is very immature i wouldnt count on him being around forever.

[ftmAmanda]

that's still no excuse to leave you. what a Douche. you'r better without him. he can't just get up and leave when ever you'r not giving him Nooky. and esp when harry is here. ****

[avaortega407]

sorry but cheating gets me mad

[Cassandrajane]

I was though.. everything was fine??
Everything was normal, sex, smiles everything?? He was even BOASTING about us and harry???
ARGH!
x

[avaortega407]

some men are just doggs

[Cassandrajane]

Im just scared about doing this on my own!! :(

x

[avaortega407]

i know mama be strong for your baby you can do it you dont need him

[Cassandrajane]

I hope sooo :)
xx

[mom2ariana]

hey girl!! im so sorry!! what made him leave all of a sudden? a guy like that isn't worth your time..if i were you i wouldn't wait around on him; but thats up to you!!!! but guys are just as good as they are gonna be when you are dating; when you get married they show their true colors; so if he's like this when you are dating he won't be any better when you are married.

and as far as doing it on your own; you CAN do it!! women have been doing it on their own for hundreds of years!! i have a friend who is raising her son by herself...the daddy was a one night stand...and let me tell you it's only made her stronger! you'll find the strength you didn't know you had! just take it one day at a time and try not to worry what tomorrow has in store.

look into any government help (idk how it is in the UK) and try to enlist any help from your family that you can!!

im here if you wanna chat! all you have to do is pm me! :)

[avaortega407]

sometimes just make things harder anyway if he cant see what a amazing woman you are then why would you want such thick headed dummy

[tiredbuthappy]

you almost made it sound like you'd accept this sleaze-bag back after he's done sleeping around, contracting STD's and god knows what else. I hope I read it wrong. I REALLY hope you are not waiting for him to come back and "come to his senses." He clearly has NO respect for you or his son. Do not try to justify or explain his behaviors. Do not accept this as normal or think that it is acceptable under any circumstance. You do not deserve this. Nobody does. Even my worst enemy wouldn't deserve to be treated like that, or to think so lowly of herself.
You can do this. I don't know about your support system, but people do this alone all the time. And you won't always be alone. Right now, don't think about how you are going to do it. Just know that your instincts will kick in and you will do everything in your power to do what's right for your baby. And what's right for your baby right now is taking care of momma. That means PLEASE seek help for your anorexia. Continue to work with the clinic. And taking care of momma means not allowing yourself to be sucked back into a relationship where the man clearly manipulates you, USES you, and completely disrespects you. In your heart you probably know that you will not be able to manage anorexia when trapped in an unhealthy relationship like that.

[PetiteWonder]

IF there one thing everyone on these boards can say about Cassandra is that you are strong and are a survivor. You have been through alot and you are still going.  If you raise the baby on your own, it will be hard at times but you will do it and do it well.

[mom2ariana]

very well said petite! cassandra you CAN do this and you WILL do this.
as someone that struggles occasionally with my eating habits--i understand, to a degree, how you feel! hang in there!! you must eat for harry; he has to have nutrition to be healthy and grow on the outside world!! :)

[gigi599]

:( , don't ever get back with him, if he did that once he is going to keep doing it.

take care of your baby, hes going to be with you and love you always ;)

[ammanda]

Cassandra!!!  John is a Douche bag, even ask your lil brother he will tell you that John is a juice bag!!!! (hope I made you smile with that line) :)

I know you can do this, and you know why????

Because what petite said, you are a strong woman and you have been through so much.  you dont need him. he is a sore loser.  and you know hes pretty much never around anyway, so whats the difference now you know.. he dont deserve to be Harrys father.  

Has he said anything about what to do about Harry?  and whos this new b****???????

She must be a home wrecking skank biscuit if she can even think about getting with a man that has a loving beautiful strong woman like yourself pregnant with his son... Grr I hate skanks like that.. and that word better not get edited!!!!! I will protest..

Cassandra, you are an amazing girl and I have grown really fond of you :)

Always remember to message me if you wanna talk.. and I KNKOW KNOW KNOW you can do this.. your alot stronger then me and most girls I know.. you have battled the worse and you can do this too.. You will be a great mother.. and Harry is so lucky to have and he is better off without JOhn!!!!!

[Cassandrajane]

I have Facebook :)

LOL...

I am just scared.. if we got back.. id make him work for me... prove it and get serious help... But I propably wont.. i am trying to eat..
I know im strong. but i am soo scared... there is soo much I dont know...

I dont know who she is and i really couldnt care less... I hate her!! and If she goes near my son.. i will not be responsible for my actions and he knows that.. i'll kil them both!!
I dont think she knows he has a son...
I am only talkin to him for harrys sake.. although i aint spoke to him today! ahahah cause he dont deserve it!

I can do it, if I got youu guys!!

xx

[ammanda]

Oh yay they finally let you have a facebook!!!!!! im excited howd that happen

[mom2ariana]

you do have us!! this forum (and us) aren't going anywhere!!
talk to harry's doctor and talk to us if you have any questions at all about what to do for him! but like you said you pretty much raised your brothers and sisters so you are going to have no problem raising harry and taking care of him!!!
lots of first time mommies don't know much. its totally normal. read up..get baby books, research online, ask questions on medhelp..you'll figure it out its a learning process!!
i wouldn't get back with him; just my advice!!!


eat eat eat! now!! i haven't eaten today and i wont if you dont. i expect a note on my profile when you have eaten and as soon as i get one i will eat too :)