hi

[tishaxx]

I'm starting to feel down and people are ment to be here for me and support me threw this tough time I'm 19weeks and 6days my fake family said they will be there no matter what but its all talk my sister said she will come to my scans with me and everytime I ask her there's always an excuse and she said she would be there in the delivery room with me and my boyfriend because I asked her I want her there but now I'm thinking she ent gonna be there for me even if I have my baby early again like before I could have my daughter any day and I don't know it until it happens I'm hoping it don't but I'm so scared I wanna cry right now my mom said she will be there and my dad all of them say they love me no matter what that's bull **** my sister has a 1 year old daughter but she's nearly 2 in november but just the week end she went out and spent £240 pound on my cousins 21st birthday I don't even think she's my cousin I think my sister just says that  and when I asked her to come to my scans she's saying she can't because shes got to do something for her friend or her daughter's got an appointment and on my scan witch was 28th last month  i asked her to come but it was my little baby cousins 1st birthday My scan was really early but she choose to go to her party instead of my scan but when I was coming off the bus she was just coming out the shop going to my cousins birthday It makes me so angry she's putting her friends before me. I've done a lot  for her and she hasn't done anything for me no one has except my boyfriend has more then any other person in my family has

[ash060115]

It might help... or even see can you find someone who's been through it too because they'll understand your feelings.

I can't beguin to imagine how it feels - but I hurt for you.
Hopefully you will feel better soon with this pregnancy x

[tishaxx]

I don't know erm sometimes my anxitey starts when I talk bout it I don't talk to a counsellor  I can't spell i no I'll be more relaxed when I've passed 24 weeks

[ash060115]

Sorry to hear you've lost three babies :( thats really sad ... your right to forget them as reliable people in your life.
And focus on your pregnancy and future.

I can't imagine how worried you are after being through three losses would a pregnancy councillor help maybe? As someone to confide worries and stresses to?

[tishaxx]

I am independent but I just give up on my family because their not family tbh  I've been there for most of my family and I just wanted them there but today I've just gave up on them all I ent gonna let anyone take me for a fool now I said to my boyfriend I'm gonna change my number and concerntrate on me the baby my flat and him  its just family's ment to be there all the time but I guess their not but no more doing stuff for them now

[My2LoveBugs]

To be honest your boyfriend is suppose to be there for you the most because this is his child not your family members . But, I do agree that you do kinda look for love & support from family when you are going through a pregnancy or any situation. Do not give up because, this is just teaching you that not always will family be there when you call . So learn to be independent ! Good luck.

[tishaxx]

Yh my boyfriend isn't always here like with me but his done more then my own family has  I'm just so scared

[tishaxx]

I no but my sister promised she will be there and help me threw this and will support me I've already lost 3 babys and she knows that if it happens again she knows I will breakdown really bad like I need at least abit of support from her and my family its really hard I don't want to lose my baby girl I'm just feeling the pressure and my nerves because its coming close to these weeks j lost my other baby girls

[ash060115]

Be gald your boyfriend is there for you. Because it could always be worse.
I wouldn't expect your sister to attend your appointments thats not her responsibility I'd stop asking her get your boyfriend to go with u.

Hopefully you'll feel better soon but just be independent its your baby. X