Actually I am the one who is more the financial support! I make plenty of money at work and my parents pay for school so that isn't at all a problem.
Is your fiance your financial support? Is that 1 reason why you are afraid to make the break, b/c you dont really have a place to go or a way to support yourself?
Maybe someone has already touched on this.
I was just thinking out loud....
You would really rather be unhappy the rest of your life than break his heart? You are only 19, you could have another 80 years of unhappiness. I don't think you really want that. Cut your losses and move on!!
Im going to get tested today in about an hour. I will get the results in about 7 days.
Mayflowers is right. You are extremely immature, K. Seriously. You shouldn't be in a relationship with anyone right now. You should focus on school and take a break from guys for a while.
I think that last night the potential reality hit you and you imagined yourself pregnant, alone, pining for your friend in Iraq (when he actually was just lonely and wanted to get some on leave), and seeing your fiance around town with a really nice girl who is nuts about him and who his family loves. If you were mature and were really thinking about your fiance, you would do what is best for him and breaking it off with him is what is best for him. Whether the two of you want to face that at or not.
Sam may not handle you with kid gloves, but he's hit the nail on the head with you several times in the past. You really do have some growing up to do.
And no matter what you do, GET TESTED! That's ironic that you are talking about "trust" with regard to a guy who would have sex with a friend's fiance. Interesting.
Get tested. If for no one else, do it for your fiance.
Mami~ I know. I just have no idea what to think.