My wife and i have been married for 3 years, 6 months ago she told me something that rocked my core. the daughter i have been raising is not mine. she had an affair 2 years ago. the reason she cheated was that she was a virgin when we got married and she wanted to feel how another man felt like.....the affair lasted 2 months. i dont get it, i was a virgin aswell but you do not see me going around sleeping with other women.
i can tell she loves me and she has been apologetic many times, i do feel i will forgive her in time but i cant forget about it. she is a beautiful woman but i am failing to bring my self to make love to her...now she has started suspecting me of revenge cheating all because i stop to say hi to a female work mate.
i just need advise, if i was to cheat would it ease my pain, i feel like a beta male for accepting the child and staying with my wife. maybe sleeping with other women will make me feel like an Alfa male again.