Thanks guys, the minister/priest is a good idea I'd never really explored. I will.
I just have so much anger. When these things were happening, my husband hid them well enough. But eventually the lies came out and I put it all together. Yet, I still don't believe I know everything, and he could have slept with the girl or her b*****itch of a mother. It is like having a big bucket of cold water dumped on you,and never realizing the the water was being collected behind your back.
Find a local minister in your phone book. But it really seems you may need to separate yourself for a season. Get yourself healthy.
Your private health matters are yours and yours alone. Your INS company can not say anything to your employer...it is illegal.
can you go see a priest/preacher/rabbi? they DEFINITELY don't report it and you would be surprised how helpful they can be even if you aren't religious...
I agree though..something's gotta give, hon. you can't keep on like this. I've followed your story from a distance and it hurts to see how much you let yourself get hurt by this guy...
I agree with imanaddict. You're not moving forward and you've been in the same unhappy sbd angry place for far too long. What kind of life are you living that way? You can either find a way to get you and your husband help or you need to leave your marriage. It cannot stay this way.
Can you pay cash for the therapy sessions and not report it to the insurance company? I just don't see any other way to help you heal other than talking with a professional and/or leaving him for good.