to me it's a deal breaker if your spouse refuses to go to therapy or to talk about problems. nothing can ever get resolved if this is the case. i feel bad for you. this is a real mess and unless you leave you are stuck with a huge problem. sometimes when women leave, men will shape up. maybe you need to tell him you are going to live apart from him until/unless he agrees to therapy. seeking help via therapy is s sign of strength and he should be willing to do everything he can for the sake of keeping his family together. he has got a lot to lose if he does not TRY.
Thank you for the replies.
I don't think I can get him to talk to anyone about this. It is a sore subject and shameful for him (only what I've done 20+ years ago, not anything he did). And I do think depression is a factor but he will never admit it. He doesn't believe in therapy and most problems are other peoples faults (in his eyes) anyway.
I just wish I had known it was going to be such an issue before we got married and before kids. It just seems to be so much of a bigger issue the last few years and I just don't know how much more I can take. But the kids are happy and are mostly unaware (definitely on subject matter) so I just don't want to "mess" them up. I just dont know.
Again, thank you for your replies.
I'll try this again. I've tried to post 2 times and for some reason it is not posting.
Obviously, it is not logical that he is upset over something that happened before he was in the picture. He had a life of his own before you, and I'd guess something traumatic happened there... no clue as to what it is.
I agree that a 3rd party would be beneficial. Besides a member of the clergy, perhaps the family doctor could step in for an assist. Nobody knows you like your doctor and he can certainly get you in line to see the appropriate professional to diagnose and address the issue.
The man sounds as depressed as I was. His symptoms sound just like mine. Here's the key... he has to want the help and I believe a guy has to hit bottom, just like an alcoholic or a junkie does. Everybody's bottom is different, and everyone puts in their own level of dedication to getting themselves better. Bottom line is, he has to want to get help.
I think you need a 3rd party in on this whether you can get him to go for therapy or maybe speak to a Pastor. This is in his head and I don't think he is going to change by anything you say unfortunately because in his mind your the problem and he's fine. Not that you really are, but in his head you are, so that's his reality.
But anyhow even if you don't belong to a church, Pastors are there for the Community not just the people who belong to their church, so there's no need to feel awkward for any reason, and they hear just about anything you can think of so there's no need to feel embarrassed or anything. Even if your Husband won't go with you, I think it would help if you could talk to someone who has helped others in similar situations..
Good luck.