Thanks for all your replies.... You have now given me the answers I have been looking for!
I think that I should definitely get help...
Thanks.
You are still reeling from the fallout with the relationship with your ex, and you should not have gotten into any relationship without dealing and healing from that one. An abusive relationship damages ones self image to say the least. It also leaves you with a fear of unknowingly getting yourself into another just like it. You are emotional damaged goods, you need counseling to repair you. Another bad decision was taking even the slightest risk of getting pregnant. I wish you luck and hope everything goes the best way for you, but it will be hard. The best thing you can do for you is get into counseling asap. It is not this guys job to heal you, he is not equipped and until you get help, no relationship will survive. Not for long.
Oh my goodness. I'm not going to lecture you about this. . . but it was not a good idea to have unprotected sex. Now you are in a relationship that takes a more serious turn when you were just learning more about him. Your life will forever be tied to his with a baby regardless where it all ends up between the two of you romantically. Such is life, I guess.
So, first to answer your question about looking at other women. Many men do this and it is truly meaningless most of the time. You were cheated on which makes us less secure in ourselves and then get caught up in comparing yourself to another. You have to fight that. I'd suggest bolstering up your own self confidence through working hard at things in your life that make you feel good about you to help overcome it. You can ask him to be respectful and not be so blatent---- but you need to work on esteem so that you really don't get upset about it. I know you are pregnant too and that does make it a little worse (I had lots of hormones or "horror mones" when I was pregnant . . . lots of things really bugged me that I usually deal with better).
I'd come up with your plan for how your life will look now that a baby is in the picture. I really think that finishing university would be an awesome goal. Even if you go part time after the baby is born. Being independent if you need to be makes you in a much better position in life.
If your current boyfriend shows any signs of being like your last, you will have to take that seriously. But you've done some therapy to help make sure you don't repeat the pattern. I wish you lots of luck and a happy/healthy pregnancy.
I applaud that you were able to get out of your first abusive relationship, because it would have been a matter of time, that he could have killed you!
As for your current b/f, if you are bothered by his flirtatious behavior, I don't blame you and you have every reason to feel insecure about it. It is natural for men and woman to look at other people, but it's also important that your partner respect and is sensitive about how you feel towards his wandering eyes. Communication and trust are the foundation of every relationship and it's time to tell him exactly what you have told us," I just wish that i could trust my boyfriend as i do really like him. I've explained to him, and he says he will try and help me."
Also, the past is the past and if you continue to live in the past, your are not moving forwards to your future, so you must put your past behind you. Let it be a learning experience, but you continue to give your abuse ex power over you and your mind, by living with fears and insecurity. Take back that power that he attempted to take from you and live your life the way you have always wanted to. Also, always practice safe, responsible sex to avoid an unwanted and unexpected pregnancy.
Take care of your health and that of an innocent baby on the way, have a take with current b/f and put the past where it belongs, in the past. Good Luck, Judy
I was in your shoes when I was your age. I stayed with that guy for 7 years and it was so incredibly hard after we divorced. He told me all the things your ex told you, hit me, cheated on me, etc. It took a toll on my self esteem for sure! The thing is, I turned it around and it actually made me a stronger person. You can't let this continue to ruin your life and future relationships. You just have to have faith that you can trust your current boyfriend until he breaks that trust. And that goes for any other future boyfriend you have. Not everyone will do horrible things to you and you cannot dwell in the past if you ever want to have any kind of future with someone else. Since you have already been put through a lot, you know what signs to look for now. If you see anything or feel anything is wrong, get out before it gets ugly. Eventually these feelings will go away and you just have to faith. If your feelings continue, I would suggest continue seeing a therapist, maybe try a different one, until you find that inner peace again. I wish you all the best!