prude turned cheater

[gisellemarie]

Hi, im new at this online stuff but feel like i have no one to turn to. I need to figure out what is wrong with me! I used to be very careful with sex, pretty much never having it unless i really loved a guy. i had 2 partners in  my twenties (none before), and i really thought i was going to marry each of them. I am still with the second guy. he and i have been together for 5 years with no major problems, but something inside me changed when i turned thirty. i resented him all of a sudden for wasting my time and i began to cheat on him like crazy. with anyone who paid attention to me! i feel so ashamed. i don't know if i need the attention or if im just an awful person:(. the only other thing in my sexual history is that i was assaulted by someone close to my family when i was 23, and my family chose to believe their friend rather than me. i really don't think that is any excuse, especially since it was so many years ago.

[jo929]

One thing sticks out in my mund, you said you have been with this guy 5 years, and then you said you resented then for wasting your time, could it be because you really wanted to marry them and they hasve not asked you if so you have wasted your time, also 30 may be a turning point in your life and you resent this guy beacause you could be married and with a family, i really do not thinkl there is anything wrong with you maybe you hace a right to be resentful  just guessin  luck  jo