So I have been with my man for 6 years in December. We're engaged and I love him to pieces. There was a portion of time where our relationship was rocky. I got with another guy. No excuses. I confessed and it almost destroyed us but, after some time, he forgave me and we worked it out.
For a time after that I felt very guilty and didn't want to have sex with my bf at the time (now fiance). He has been very patient with me. I look at him and think that he is a sexy man and he treats me well and I find him very physically attractive. We also are so balanced and perfect every where else, we laugh, we talk etc. We've talked about my issues regarding sex as well...I have horrible stage fright now after our slump. I get turned on and I get scared to follow through-I get a lump in my throat and get butterflies. The idea of having sex really scares me because its been long enough that maybe I think it will be bad or awkward. Like I said, I do get turned on and can even take care of business by myself. But the idea of sex gets me totally stressed out.
Help!