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heavy bleeding/emotional problems after losing virginity.
I'm writing this after the fact (it happened about a month ago), but I would just like to share my experience, because it was a difficult one, and see if anyone else has experienced anything similiar, or if i'm just crazy.
ok, so, i'm in college and about a month ago I lost my virginity (it was a guy a knew, and am good friends with), and I wanted to try it partly out of curiousity and because I always thought sex would be something I liked. But it was sooooo much different. It hurt like nothing i've experienced before and I thought there might be some blood, but I was so embarassed because the guy's sheets were soaked, and the shirt that he laid down before hand. I had to get up like 10 times during the night and the whole toilet bowl was filled with blood every time (sorry, not to get too graphic, but I just wanna tell it the way it was). The next morning I was still bleeding and really sore.
But the story get worse....so, the whole next day I just felt uncontrollably emotional and depressed. For some reason I felt violated and could hardly stand to look at my body in the mirror. I couldn't stop crying all day, and that night I honestly felt like I could have jumped off a bridge (idk why I felt this way, looking back it was so irrational). I wasn't upset because i'd lost my virgninity..I honestly don't know why the depression happened. Anyways, i'm completely fine now, but it's still hard for me to think back to this experience. Please someone tell me if the bleeding is normal, and if the emotional response makes me a complete psycho.
ok, so, i'm in college and about a month ago I lost my virginity (it was a guy a knew, and am good friends with), and I wanted to try it partly out of curiousity and because I always thought sex would be something I liked. But it was sooooo much different. It hurt like nothing i've experienced before and I thought there might be some blood, but I was so embarassed because the guy's sheets were soaked, and the shirt that he laid down before hand. I had to get up like 10 times during the night and the whole toilet bowl was filled with blood every time (sorry, not to get too graphic, but I just wanna tell it the way it was). The next morning I was still bleeding and really sore.
But the story get worse....so, the whole next day I just felt uncontrollably emotional and depressed. For some reason I felt violated and could hardly stand to look at my body in the mirror. I couldn't stop crying all day, and that night I honestly felt like I could have jumped off a bridge (idk why I felt this way, looking back it was so irrational). I wasn't upset because i'd lost my virgninity..I honestly don't know why the depression happened. Anyways, i'm completely fine now, but it's still hard for me to think back to this experience. Please someone tell me if the bleeding is normal, and if the emotional response makes me a complete psycho.
I just lost mine a week ago and the exact same thing happened... I did it just to get it over with, and with a guy a barely knew and when we were done (btw, got nothing out of it... hurt, anddd wasnt comfortable and ya, just all around weird!) I got up, and changed... looked back on the sheets and saw that it was soaked with blood. When i took them off, it had gone through the sheet onto the matress cover/pad... and there was some on the covers. Best part was that this wasnt either of our beds. It was my guy friends bed. Ugh. ( to make my experience 10x better, we had someone walk in on us)
The next day, I felt horrible. i was embarassed cause I knew everyone would find out (the guy was on a hockey team. They told eachother everything) and i felt wrong/used/violated almost. I took a bath the night after, and I couldnt stand to see myself in the mirror.
Now, Im kind of over it. The whole team found out, and you know, when they brought it up the other night at a party I just laughed it up and said "hey, better then being a **** in my opinion...Now its over with! And plus, everyone needs an awkward first time story."
Im still coping with my body though. Its gonna take a bit for me to see myself the way I used to be.
Im hoping the next time it happens will be with someone I trust!
Hope this made ya feel better :)
The next day, I felt horrible. i was embarassed cause I knew everyone would find out (the guy was on a hockey team. They told eachother everything) and i felt wrong/used/violated almost. I took a bath the night after, and I couldnt stand to see myself in the mirror.
Now, Im kind of over it. The whole team found out, and you know, when they brought it up the other night at a party I just laughed it up and said "hey, better then being a **** in my opinion...Now its over with! And plus, everyone needs an awkward first time story."
Im still coping with my body though. Its gonna take a bit for me to see myself the way I used to be.
Im hoping the next time it happens will be with someone I trust!
Hope this made ya feel better :)
I know exactly how you feel, I had the same problem, but I didn't bleed for long after.
I felt extremely violated and kept crying, the blood drenched his bed and matress, which made it extremely difficult for me to help him change the sheets. I broke down during that. =/
I felt extremely violated and kept crying, the blood drenched his bed and matress, which made it extremely difficult for me to help him change the sheets. I broke down during that. =/
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