I am 21 years old and have been married for 2 and a half years now. For a good long time, since I was in middle school I believe, I have always had fantasies about being a "bottom" for guys and transvestites. I masturbate consistently and look up personal ads for it. I've even sucked off a few guys before thinking maybe satisfying the fantasy would make it go away, but it didn't waver. I didn't enjoy the experience, but the fantasy remained, no stronger no weaker; I still masturbate, I still look up ads, and it's damaging my relationship with my wife. I want it to go away! This is very troubling to me and I want to stop. Please help me, what do I do?