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Its me shaz853 i couldn't post on the forum and it wouldn't let me log in and i had to re-join, i would write my e-mail address but i don't know if it would let me.
The night went ok but i realised how changed i really am i was so uncomfortable and so easily annoyed and upset, it depressed me even more, my partner and i fell out then because he was so drunk we didn't get home until 3am
I was still frustrated from talking to the doctor as well, but i guess i can see i have been unpredictable lately, he asked me was i sure i could keep myself safe i said yes he said i had to work with them in helping myself. He asked had i reasons to live i said i'm sure i have, he asked me could i see a future i said not now, he asked was i driving home i said i was and he asked was i definelty going home i said i was, he asked did i have a plan and i said no. He asked me to reassure him that i would be ok for now and i said i'll try so thats probably why they didn't hospitalize me at that time i was ok when talking to him, if he had seen me after or this morning that was a different picture. He said if i say in that moment that i am ok then he has to trust me but if that changes i need to tell them i said i would. I think i would have felt better had he asked more about other stuff but your probably right the safety issue was maybe the most important. He asked that on Tuesday when i planned to go away he asked what brought me back i said talking to my therapist he seemed surprised that i came back for him and not my family but i was talking to my therapist at that time and he was making me think of him so thats why, i didn't want to think of anyone but listening to him helped at that time but now they trust me even less, i find that frustrating but i guess its my fault.
I am hoping my therapist will tell me what the doctor discussed but he might not. That form of depression you mentioned that was what he said, first time it was major depressive disorder but not now i've had it too long. I thought suicidal thoughts were more present with major depressive disorder but they must be present with depression in general.
I don't know why i couldn't post on the forum or log in but i hope this works ok.
I hope all is well with you, have a good day.
The night went ok but i realised how changed i really am i was so uncomfortable and so easily annoyed and upset, it depressed me even more, my partner and i fell out then because he was so drunk we didn't get home until 3am
I was still frustrated from talking to the doctor as well, but i guess i can see i have been unpredictable lately, he asked me was i sure i could keep myself safe i said yes he said i had to work with them in helping myself. He asked had i reasons to live i said i'm sure i have, he asked me could i see a future i said not now, he asked was i driving home i said i was and he asked was i definelty going home i said i was, he asked did i have a plan and i said no. He asked me to reassure him that i would be ok for now and i said i'll try so thats probably why they didn't hospitalize me at that time i was ok when talking to him, if he had seen me after or this morning that was a different picture. He said if i say in that moment that i am ok then he has to trust me but if that changes i need to tell them i said i would. I think i would have felt better had he asked more about other stuff but your probably right the safety issue was maybe the most important. He asked that on Tuesday when i planned to go away he asked what brought me back i said talking to my therapist he seemed surprised that i came back for him and not my family but i was talking to my therapist at that time and he was making me think of him so thats why, i didn't want to think of anyone but listening to him helped at that time but now they trust me even less, i find that frustrating but i guess its my fault.
I am hoping my therapist will tell me what the doctor discussed but he might not. That form of depression you mentioned that was what he said, first time it was major depressive disorder but not now i've had it too long. I thought suicidal thoughts were more present with major depressive disorder but they must be present with depression in general.
I don't know why i couldn't post on the forum or log in but i hope this works ok.
I hope all is well with you, have a good day.
I don't think trying harder is the answer. Changing the behavior, perhaps is??
I don't really have anywhere to go. That's good if things are calmer with your partner. What has made the difference? Whatever it is you should run with it.
I just went for a short run. I'm thinking about making an ultimatum for when I visit my GP next week. I'm tired of doing this and of being stuck and not having access to support that can help. This process is annoying me no end. I don't expect there will be an appointment letter in the post today. Is almost stupid getting my expectations up.
I hope the intensive therapy goes well.
I don't really have anywhere to go. That's good if things are calmer with your partner. What has made the difference? Whatever it is you should run with it.
I just went for a short run. I'm thinking about making an ultimatum for when I visit my GP next week. I'm tired of doing this and of being stuck and not having access to support that can help. This process is annoying me no end. I don't expect there will be an appointment letter in the post today. Is almost stupid getting my expectations up.
I hope the intensive therapy goes well.
Yeah i know they have other things to do but when i feel so bad i get frustrated at them but i know they are busy. I am hoping i will feel better soon and i won't need to contact them as much, that annoys me too that i need to contact them sometimes daily, why can't i cope on my own, maybe i need to try harder.
I didn't eat so much for a while but today i ate too much junk so i know where you are coming from. Arguments would be stressful to live with, do you have friends or family that you can go and visit sometimes. Feeling trapped is not good.
Things have been calm with my partner lately i am glad, the bad side is though then i have too much time to think and all those thoughts and feelings get worse, at least i know intensive therapy is planned well thats if the other doctor doesn't suggest something else.
I didn't eat so much for a while but today i ate too much junk so i know where you are coming from. Arguments would be stressful to live with, do you have friends or family that you can go and visit sometimes. Feeling trapped is not good.
Things have been calm with my partner lately i am glad, the bad side is though then i have too much time to think and all those thoughts and feelings get worse, at least i know intensive therapy is planned well thats if the other doctor doesn't suggest something else.
Your T and SW have other responsibilities too. They see clients, have admin, etc.
You should probably just go to hospital. Decide and then act. Can you afford to keep going on like this? It sounds exhausting. I forget how bad it can actually be.
I'm feeling a bit frustrated, etc. I have been binge eating badly again and that is not helping. It takes me further from my goals but means I don't have to deal with heaps on negative emotions in that moment. Then I am left dealing with all the issues.
Mum and Dad are arguing, etc again. It can get pretty tense. It's not really a healthy place to be trapped in.
I hope you have a great day.
You should probably just go to hospital. Decide and then act. Can you afford to keep going on like this? It sounds exhausting. I forget how bad it can actually be.
I'm feeling a bit frustrated, etc. I have been binge eating badly again and that is not helping. It takes me further from my goals but means I don't have to deal with heaps on negative emotions in that moment. Then I am left dealing with all the issues.
Mum and Dad are arguing, etc again. It can get pretty tense. It's not really a healthy place to be trapped in.
I hope you have a great day.
I had another day of fighting with myself it was unreal. i rang both my therpaist and social worker and couldn't get either, then they both rang back in the afternoon.
I just asked my therapist about the appointment on the 18th and he said he needed a second opinion so i understand that, i was getting frustrated with my social worker she makes it all sound so happy and easy. I was thinking they tell me to ring them when i need them, then i couldn't get them at that point i was still wasn't dressed at 2pm and i was ready to commit myself to hospital, i eventually calmed down when two woman called to see me a referral was put in my therapist to see if they could offer any help to my family, the distraction of them helped. My therapist said he will come and see me in the respite place on Tuesday for our session, then i will come home on Wednesday.
I am sorry you are still waiting to hear i hope your doctor can give you an idea of when you might get an appointment, i get frustrated waiting on appointments too.
How are things with you?
I hope all is well.
I just asked my therapist about the appointment on the 18th and he said he needed a second opinion so i understand that, i was getting frustrated with my social worker she makes it all sound so happy and easy. I was thinking they tell me to ring them when i need them, then i couldn't get them at that point i was still wasn't dressed at 2pm and i was ready to commit myself to hospital, i eventually calmed down when two woman called to see me a referral was put in my therapist to see if they could offer any help to my family, the distraction of them helped. My therapist said he will come and see me in the respite place on Tuesday for our session, then i will come home on Wednesday.
I am sorry you are still waiting to hear i hope your doctor can give you an idea of when you might get an appointment, i get frustrated waiting on appointments too.
How are things with you?
I hope all is well.
I have done that too. One doctor said he would section me unless I agreed to take medication. I eventually said yes but then never took any. The doctor went back to the States soon after so it was never followed up that diligently. The doctor who I usually saw told my GP he wasn't prepared to use the act at that time.
Here you need someone to initiate proceedings. For me that was my T. Then you need to be assessed by a doctor and then another one. I think it changes a bit due to circumstances but for the most part it is the same. Or it's something like that. I can't remember the process exactly at the moment.
No letter again today. I guess my doctor will let me know on Tuesday when I see him next.
Here you need someone to initiate proceedings. For me that was my T. Then you need to be assessed by a doctor and then another one. I think it changes a bit due to circumstances but for the most part it is the same. Or it's something like that. I can't remember the process exactly at the moment.
No letter again today. I guess my doctor will let me know on Tuesday when I see him next.
I knew i had to sign it or i wouldn't have been able to go home, they did offer me the respite place as well but in said no, i just wanted to go home.
If i go of my own will to the hospital i can refuse medication, so as a safety option it would be ok it takes away my options then i would have no choice. I think she was a nurse and i was already with my social worker, i also knew thought that two people had to assess you before they admit you, thats why i was scared.
If i still feel that way in the morning i will try to be honest with her, i am tired of fighting with myself.
I hope you hear about the review soon.
If i go of my own will to the hospital i can refuse medication, so as a safety option it would be ok it takes away my options then i would have no choice. I think she was a nurse and i was already with my social worker, i also knew thought that two people had to assess you before they admit you, thats why i was scared.
If i still feel that way in the morning i will try to be honest with her, i am tired of fighting with myself.
I hope you hear about the review soon.
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